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Sad is such a three letter way to describe how I feel.
Too small.
I'd rather make up my own word that's longer so it encompasses more emotion. Such as sadanesquerada. I would've put an accent over that last e if I knew how, to make it extra dramatic. But I don't know how, which only makes me sadanesqueradaer.
My foursome is now a splitsome and I understand it but I hate it. It used to be four of us. We had such rules and regulations. That made me happy because rules always mean you mean business so it's the real deal.
I can't put it back together and I suppose I don't want to, but I wish things never did change. Is it so bad to wish things were still so innocent? To wish my good times came from driving my friends home from high school and getting a thrill from trying to get from one destination to another without stopping?
I feel like that is what I've done though, and I don't like it. I've gone from one destination to another without stopping. And I really wanna stop.
But it's not gonna happen.
I guess it almost feels like when a relationship ends. But worse, because this is like when you think you've found the one and you're engaged and you've already prepared yourself to spend the rest of your life with that person and then it abruptly ends.
We were supposed to be friends forever.
There are too many changes taking place too close together.
Too small.
I'd rather make up my own word that's longer so it encompasses more emotion. Such as sadanesquerada. I would've put an accent over that last e if I knew how, to make it extra dramatic. But I don't know how, which only makes me sadanesqueradaer.
My foursome is now a splitsome and I understand it but I hate it. It used to be four of us. We had such rules and regulations. That made me happy because rules always mean you mean business so it's the real deal.
I can't put it back together and I suppose I don't want to, but I wish things never did change. Is it so bad to wish things were still so innocent? To wish my good times came from driving my friends home from high school and getting a thrill from trying to get from one destination to another without stopping?
I feel like that is what I've done though, and I don't like it. I've gone from one destination to another without stopping. And I really wanna stop.
But it's not gonna happen.
I guess it almost feels like when a relationship ends. But worse, because this is like when you think you've found the one and you're engaged and you've already prepared yourself to spend the rest of your life with that person and then it abruptly ends.
We were supposed to be friends forever.
There are too many changes taking place too close together.