23 February 1980
Anyone else think that Ro somehow missed the memo where we won the last match?
I'm not sure what I'm doing anymore. Between Shannon and Quidditch, I feel like those are the only things keeping me sane. When I'm not playing or with her, I'm thinking about my da and wondering what things at home are going to be like. With Alison married and him gone, it's just going to be me there for my Mam, and I'm not sure I can do that. I'm not my da. I can't take his place. He was a good man and tried to help everyone and anyone and I'm not. I'm not. I know I can't be. I'm just not. I'm leaving school in a few months and that's hard enough to swallow as it is, but having to be the man of the family so soon?
Maybe Shannon's right. We're way too young for any of this.
I'm not sure what I'm doing anymore. Between Shannon and Quidditch, I feel like those are the only things keeping me sane. When I'm not playing or with her, I'm thinking about my da and wondering what things at home are going to be like. With Alison married and him gone, it's just going to be me there for my Mam, and I'm not sure I can do that. I'm not my da. I can't take his place. He was a good man and tried to help everyone and anyone and I'm not. I'm not. I know I can't be. I'm just not. I'm leaving school in a few months and that's hard enough to swallow as it is, but having to be the man of the family so soon?
Maybe Shannon's right. We're way too young for any of this.