(no subject)

[peachynpink]

you think you know my heart
and maybe you do
maybe i have no idea who you are anymore
and maybe i can't say that to you
i can't say anything for all the fear in me
fear of letting you in too deep
again
fear of wasting my thoughts
too many times more
more times with you
just remind me of the last time with you
and i question the word "last"
its meaning, its truth
it never seems to be the last anything though
you keep coming back
no matter how far i push you away
i wish you would stay pushed away
in the shadows is where you belong
in that memory i can't let go of
and that memory i can't quite remember
words words words are all i have of you
and even the words weren't yours to give
i'm sick of your one word sentences
where did your passion go?
other ways i suppose
pushed toward more important things to you
before this talk we had tonight i was dandy
and even know im doing just fine
but i cant help but to feel swamped with emotions
the past
that isnt that far away
ok time to say goodbye
and as much as i want to,
i wont make the mistake of saying i miss you
even though i think i might
just a bit
goodnight and be good