a fucking waste of my precious time
i hope your happy with the heartache you've caused
it never fails that you make me feel like a total drama queen
as if i say words but you hear nothing
but its real to me, it isnt a feeling i made up
not for my own good anyways
i dont even love you anymore
it was just this hope that maybe i could see some part of you that i
always wished existed
just so i could say i knew it would be great
just so that i knew that hunch inside the pit of my stomach wasnt wrong all these years
even if it were only for several very short moments
atleast all those hopes and wishing on stars would be put to some good use
and you used to call me a tease
atleast im not a liar
all the times you didtn say things cause it "wasnt something you should say over the phone"
i could have been standing two inches from those green eyes of yours and you wouldnt have whispered a word
im not sad that you arent what i wanted you to be
becayse there is so much better then you
im just pissed that for so long you led me to believe there was something magical inside of you
but dammit there isnt
such stupid girls we all are
these moments of intense stupidity that hit us when we say "what the hell was i thinking, and how could i be so blind?"
are some of the lowest moments ive ever had
but this place is still perfect for me
even though your here too
i still have all that i came for, you never were a reason for me being here
i hope you never told your self that cause you would be sadly mistaken
this new life of mine, this new grown up girl ive bcome fits so well
and ive cried my tears and walked in the rain and through it all....still splendid
i miss my friends and my one and only
but this is still right and still good and im still living
and breathing and wishing, just not for you anymore
it never fails that you make me feel like a total drama queen
as if i say words but you hear nothing
but its real to me, it isnt a feeling i made up
not for my own good anyways
i dont even love you anymore
it was just this hope that maybe i could see some part of you that i
always wished existed
just so i could say i knew it would be great
just so that i knew that hunch inside the pit of my stomach wasnt wrong all these years
even if it were only for several very short moments
atleast all those hopes and wishing on stars would be put to some good use
and you used to call me a tease
atleast im not a liar
all the times you didtn say things cause it "wasnt something you should say over the phone"
i could have been standing two inches from those green eyes of yours and you wouldnt have whispered a word
im not sad that you arent what i wanted you to be
becayse there is so much better then you
im just pissed that for so long you led me to believe there was something magical inside of you
but dammit there isnt
such stupid girls we all are
these moments of intense stupidity that hit us when we say "what the hell was i thinking, and how could i be so blind?"
are some of the lowest moments ive ever had
but this place is still perfect for me
even though your here too
i still have all that i came for, you never were a reason for me being here
i hope you never told your self that cause you would be sadly mistaken
this new life of mine, this new grown up girl ive bcome fits so well
and ive cried my tears and walked in the rain and through it all....still splendid
i miss my friends and my one and only
but this is still right and still good and im still living
and breathing and wishing, just not for you anymore