I need to find my compass
I am feeling lost after moving down to Houston. I am unsure of were I want my life to go, I have never feel unsure of what I want to do for a career. I always felt I needed to become an Art Teacher, but now I don't know. I feel like the art door is open down here, I have joined guilds, and art shows. Now there is an opportunity for an artist residency that I would love to grab. But I feel like I should be more excited about finding Art teaching positions and subbing but the politics, red tape, and networking have seamed overwhelming and petty. Subbing is depressing, I am not sure if it is because I had fought hard to get my first teaching position or if it is just because it is the nature of the job, or if I need to find a new path. When I was talking to my husband about it I couldn't help smiling when I was talking about working on my art. That is an important sign, but the income is the issues or lack there off. So do I keep on the teacher track with the system falling apart or do I jump ship and make art, teach workshops, make art lesson videos, get my MFA and maybe teach at the college level. My husband wants me to be happy. I know I feel lost, and unsure, these are odd feeling for me especially when it comes to my career.