You can't be Serious, yes I is!
I got an e-mail from my sister today! It was nice, because for the past week I have been missing her. She seems like she’s happy with Evan and his family! And I’m happy for her, although this pass weekend I couldn’t help think how much I wish she was there to spend the 4th with us… and now that I’m leaving in 3 weeks...it’s coming faster then I thought....It's amazing to me how much a relief it WILL be. My sis and I always wanted to free ourselves from my dads life.. And now we are. Don't get me wrong my dad did the best he could and the best he knew how.... But the lives we lead were not as happy as we would have wanted em to be ... and finally were gone. The past 5 years have been amazing, wonderful, sad, depressing, and life changing all in one and Even though I know my mom could have Gavin me a better life in terms of successfulness.. ... I really don’t think I would have been happy…nor would I have gotten the change to have all the experiences and learn the things… that have shown me who I am... and what I believe…although there is still things I don’t know and need to work on.... I think its important for each person to live freely and make mistakes...... not be controlled and that is just what my mom would have done! eh.. I guess every time there’s something good.. there’s something bad that goes along with it... that’s just life.. and every decision I have made while growing up seems like it was more self-destructive then self-helping... I think I always choose the things that hurt me in the long run... I really need to work on that... lol..