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is it possible to have your day start sucking at 9 pm? my whole day was fine...then i went to dance and came home and me and my mom got into the subject of my dad, and my car...So shes like blah blah blah ur gonna have to start saving for a car cuz blah blah blah i wont have any extra money to buy you one...so i go "well i could ask my dad to help..." and she goes "yea you could ask...i wouldnt count on it thou..." me: "why to do act like hes such a mean guy all the time?" her: "i just dont want you to get dissapointed when he doesnt give you anything...He never did for his other kids..." me: "yea well he also never spent time with his other kids either...he spends time with me"
so then i started crying and felt really guilty that i hadn't called him in a long time, so i came inside and picked up the phone...We had a nice chat =) he was telling me how he remembers the night i was born...and how there was like 2 feet of snow... =) i was trying really hard not to cry...He kept telling me that he was glad i called...=)
it's sad that when i talk to my dad on the phone there's that same awkward silence like when i used to talk to anthony on the phone...(anthony's not like that anymore, but he used to be) its like someone will say something and then there will be silence for a minute... then the other person will say something and no one will say anything for 2 more minutes...i dunno, it just upsets me...
I always wanted to be "daddy's little girl" ya know? be able to run over to him whenever i want and wrap my arms around him tightly...But i never had that...i've never even been able to talk to my dad like a normal person would be able to...
i wish my life was more like a movie...the little girl always has her daddy to cry on...
so then i started crying and felt really guilty that i hadn't called him in a long time, so i came inside and picked up the phone...We had a nice chat =) he was telling me how he remembers the night i was born...and how there was like 2 feet of snow... =) i was trying really hard not to cry...He kept telling me that he was glad i called...=)
it's sad that when i talk to my dad on the phone there's that same awkward silence like when i used to talk to anthony on the phone...(anthony's not like that anymore, but he used to be) its like someone will say something and then there will be silence for a minute... then the other person will say something and no one will say anything for 2 more minutes...i dunno, it just upsets me...
I always wanted to be "daddy's little girl" ya know? be able to run over to him whenever i want and wrap my arms around him tightly...But i never had that...i've never even been able to talk to my dad like a normal person would be able to...
i wish my life was more like a movie...the little girl always has her daddy to cry on...