im such a FUCKING asshole!
so tonight was fuckin gay. im stupid. first off. i went to skrappys and watched the show i was supposed to play in with my band. it was decent but hardly anyone there...pretty much it was the most boring night of my life. 2nd. im a fuckin asshole and i delibertly dissobeyed my mom. i wanted to go to AMPM for food and cigarettes with sean and i asked her to take her car. she said no. so when she went in her room to go to bed. i took it. everything was fine. its a manual and im not the best manual driver but i only stalled one out of 6 times moving from idle. at the end of the ampm run and everything i drop off sean and it was all dandy...i go home. when i go home i pull into our parking spot and when i do i fuck up , slip off the pedal and slam my moms passenger side mirror into a pole and break it off. PARKING...the one thing at driving im NORMALLY good at!...god fuckin damn it. the one night i had the whole "angel vs devil" conversation in my head is the one night devil took over and fucked me. i feel so bad so tomorrow i have to ask brian where he took his to get fixed and my moms gunna getan estimate to see how much it costs to fix and im gunna have to pay for it...which is another thing i REALLY dont nee right now. more god damn debt. i hate my self im such a dick. i really didnt wanna go to AMPM and when ido i HAD to fuck up PARKING..the last god damn part of the quest! jesus!