silly silly boys
I. Feel. Like. Poop. Ugh.
Yea, I'm sick. I fucking hate it. And I just went to the Doctor today for my physical. I had to get a shot. A tetnis shot, I'm not sure though if thats how you spell it. She asked me all sorts of odd questions like if I was sexually active and if I did any experimenting with drugs or alchol, if I had a boyfriend, if I knew about safe sex, how my friends were, how my grades were, just some weird stuff... and then I had to put on these weird short thingys and she had me lay down on the bed and she just pulled them open and was like "Any problems down there?" LOL omg. I was like "uhhh no." now get your fucking hand out of there. NO clue what that had to do with being able to play tennis...but Maasa said they did that to her too. And her boobs. So at least she didn't feel the need to "check me." I would have died.
Other than that...oh yea I guess JJ and Lauren have a thing now...didn't see that one coming. He told me about it like I would be devasted or something.
"Just to let you know, there might be something brewing with Lauren. I kissed her today."
What do I say to that? "Thats great JJ I hope you used tongue." ? Like seriously...I have no control over him and what he does, we're friends and thats it. Yet he feels like this sort of thing would be horrible news to me. And yea, it hurt, but then I reminded myself of all the things that he's done to me and what my friends tell me and I realized that I was starting to be dependent on him. I don't ever want to be dependent on a guy. Not even when I'm married. To me its a symbol of weakness. Having to depend on a guy for emotional support. Plus, you can never trust guys. Not one in my lifetime has proven trustworthy and dependent. So I just stick to the girls I know I can count on. Thank God for Maasa, Andrea, Elise, and Cat.... and sometimes Colleen. But let's not get into that. Why did God have to put men on this Earth? Couldn't women just be asexual? UGH things would be so much easier. I'm starting to think I'll never find a trustworthy guy out there....but then again most girls are thinking that right now.
I miss my cousins...I want to be in Syria right now. And I never say that I wish I was in Syria. Maybe I should move there...I'd want Andrea or Cat to go with me though :)
Dinner time. For some reason I have the phrase "Silly Sally" stuck in my head. Ha. JJ's a silly sally.
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