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i don't know what i was expecting to come home to when i came home. i think pretty much the exact life i left. work is different, my friends are different, school will be different. i don't know why i was so excited.
i just work all the time which i guess is what i asked for. but i don't have time to do anything. i'm saving the money i hoped i would be saving which is nice though. i want to do really well in school next semester. i think if i work as hard as i tried at school in australia it won't be so bad at all. i get to do my internship in a year too which will be nice. i still don't know what i want to do for it. i want to leave new engand, that's all i know. i don't even think i want to live here after i graduate. i know i always said i did and shit, but lately, ever since i came home i've been thinking what the fuck is so special? nothing. obviously my family is here, but there is nothing else holding me here.
lately i've been angry constantly. at myself, at others, at pretty much everything. it's sunny out today and i guess that's one good thing.
i just work all the time which i guess is what i asked for. but i don't have time to do anything. i'm saving the money i hoped i would be saving which is nice though. i want to do really well in school next semester. i think if i work as hard as i tried at school in australia it won't be so bad at all. i get to do my internship in a year too which will be nice. i still don't know what i want to do for it. i want to leave new engand, that's all i know. i don't even think i want to live here after i graduate. i know i always said i did and shit, but lately, ever since i came home i've been thinking what the fuck is so special? nothing. obviously my family is here, but there is nothing else holding me here.
lately i've been angry constantly. at myself, at others, at pretty much everything. it's sunny out today and i guess that's one good thing.