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yah im a dork.. haha we all know it. i was watching peter pan *the newest one wth jeremy sumpter in it* and haha it was cute. im in my emotional stage. haha. yea i know i know. i cried. hey leave me alone. we all know that i go for that romantic stuff haha. when i watched aladdin with sormeh i was like " i want a guy who is like ' her smile is, and her eyes!..'" n i was like awww. than he said "'shes so pretty'" now a days its just " shes soooo fuckin hot" haha. yea i like to be flattered the old fashion way. u kno im all in for this romantic crapola. haha. well me mom and dad have been gone since uhh 4ish. i still havent eaten. ill prolly eat soon. anyways ill finish this later..back anyways, yah my day sucked so much..i just wanna run away. syd offered her house but i was like no thanks. but w/e. shes leaving till sunday...i wanna cry just out of anger but i prolly wont. cuz once i start i cry about everything. i need someone for me. everyone i care about lives far, well everyone that could comfort me...all my emotions r clashing..im so pissed n i wanna cry, n i feel like shit n its just so many things that i dont wanna deal with. " sometimes it feels like the worlds on my shouldrs. everyone leaning on me. sometimes it feels like the worlds almost over but than she comes back to me. " i think i relate with that the most right now. i just dont know what to do..maybe tomorrow will be better. kinda crappy mood for going to the beach...well whatever. only a couple people cheer me up n they know who they r. anyways w/e " now it dont feel like the worlds on my shoulders. everones leaning on me. cuz my baby knows that her daddys a soilder. nothing can take her from mee." well i still want my dream guy...hes still there..any takers? yah anywys ill be back on thursday with pics n stuff. from the beach n unviersal proly.