I have been thinking ....
I have been thinkig about alot of things, and i figured .. I should let you people know, beacuse I need to tell someone, because my thoughts must be put out, I wrote them down, so ya kow. This is evreything tha has changed since last summer, so here we go.
#1 My appearance. Ooh, so sexy.(coughnotcough)I cut my hair from the middle of my back, with no bangies. To above my shoulders with teh bangies.I know ... Crazy. Ooh, I have also peirced my ears twice, ALL BY MESELF,yay!! Four holes.
#2 I met Ryan. Wow, ya know. And when he died .. i was like. No. I wouldn't accept it. Even though, now almost a year, I still dont think the fullness of it has hit me. The fact that HE'S NOT COMING BACK .. thats a weird thing to think about. And everytime I think about him, my stomach tightens when that thought comes up. He's the first person I knew and touched, that died. His funeral was my first funeral ... And the only thing I am positive I know about this ... this. Is that I don't want to do it again. I don't ....
#3 My Daphney had puppies.Five beautiful, black, Rat Spaniels(or Cocker Terriers). We kept Pandaa. And Layla died in April. And Radar is fine and BIG!! And Heero, and Pepper .. I hope they are okay.
#4 My Daphney died. I don't know why it hit me so hard. I cried so much. I think the only time I cried that much is when Ryan died. Alot of people thought I was stupid for crying over a dog. But how would they feel when the person who listened to you, made you happy, greeted you when you came home, slept with you, and was always there died. Just ... left. They wouldn't like it.
#5 My "love" life, if you'd even call it that, has changed a shit load. Me and Josh just didn't really work. I don't remember if either of us "dumped" eachother. We just kinda stopped talking. I was swinging solo there for awhile. Then I met Ryan and fuckin' Johnny. I don't know why I even THOUGHT about it ... but I did. ( I mean, C'mon ... look at him. And Whitterz knows, we've discussed it.) And there was Josh Ray .... I did love him, and I cared about him. I don't know. I just ... didn't love him like I thought I did. I don't understand, either. Then I was talkin' to Isaac ( that is how you spell it). That kid ( and I can call him kid he's younger then me) is hott!!!!!! And then, so help me god, I started liking a fucking 12 year old goddamn it. And now ... i dunno. We'll see.
#6 ME AND NOVA QUIT BEING FRIENDS, THANK GOD!!!!!!!!!!
#7 Me and Olivia adapted the names Pyrate(me) and Ninga(her). From a button we accidently stole (don't ask) and it says ,"Are you a pirate or a ninja?". And you all know I love Pirates. And i was like " I am Pyrate" and she said, "Hey, Ningas kick more ass." So there you go.
#8 I have a new addiction.
I LOVE TOAST!!!!!!!
"Yeah toast."
#9 Dad and Tonya split up. THANK GOD!!!!!!
#10..........10..............10 Everything, everything, everything!!!!
That's it, a novel. I know, but we all had to catch up.
Peace, Love, Toast, and Bruiser Breaks.