Just doing my duty as a faithful emotastical ljay writer

[peachesnccreme5]

It's really hard to explain exactly what's been happening to me lately, because most of you will think i'm insane(crazy),brainwashed, gullible, naive, ignorant, and whatever else falls into those categories. I don't mind, think what you must. However, believe me when I say that before this point in my life, i have never been as happy, joyful, and content. I won't exactly tell you what it is that's really changed my life, but I can describe how it makes me feel, because it is a real feeling that doesn't just "happen" randomly. These past few weeks my mind feels like it's finally open. My brain has been going Mach 5 and my body has been killing itself trying to keep up with it. It's almost like an epiphany. When I look at things now, anything i see, it has at least three different meanings to it. Life makes me smile a lot more lately and my heart feels light and right. I feel like i'm walking in the right path, the one i had previously been running like hell away from because, like most of you, i thought it was stupid, dumb, a waste, too hard, and too extreme. I think what's extreme, for me at least, is walking away from it. Trust me, it's not an easy path to walk, but the difficulty level seems so much easier when you know the reward, and it's so much easier to go with what you feel in your innermost core than to fight it. By now, most of you probably get a general idea of what's going on and what it is that's changed, and I know most of you don't agree with it, but that's okay. I'm sorry to those who have no idea what the hell i'm talking about and if you ask me personally, i'll try to explain it to you. I just thought it necessary to let everyone know what's going on in my life. Although most of you probably think i'm nuts, at least believe me when i say that, as of now, I am happy not as in a happy mood, because that would imply that it goes away with time, but a happy disposition, a happy outlook on life. I am joyful.

Hope everyone else is doing good. I love you all, really, i mean that. :)

Love,
Alex