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i want to marry someone i can talk to about anything. i want to have intelligent conversations about stuff. i want someone who thinks on my level. i want someone who will inspire me to work hard. i want someone who will love me completely and for me. i want to be able to love that person and never grow bored.
call me obsessive, but he's my every thought. i think about him when i wake up and he's what i'm thinking about when i fall asleep. i've felt like this before, but never on this level. there's something inside me saying *him. he's the one.* now if only i can make HIM see that. i want to be *the one* for him. i think he knows i like him because i took a million pictures of him and i told him he made a great jack sparrow. but i want him to realize i'm serious. it's not just a crush.
when i first saw him i liked him because he acts like jack sparrow, but as i watched him... it was more than that. it was because of the way he acts. and talks. and looks. and i'm afraid that i'm going to never have a chance. i'm not much to look at. he probably goes for the skinny, little, pretty girls. i'm not skinny, i'm not little, and i'm only slightly pretty. but if he could give me a chance to warm up to him, i could talk to him about anything he wishes.
not to make myself sound boy crazy but i "met" another guy on sunday. but he is from texas and is only here till Saturday. i was able to talk to him naturally without taking the time that i usually need to warm up to someone. i asked questions and he answered. and he remembered me from 8 years ago.. does that mean anything? what does this mean, meeting two guys that i clicked with in different ways that i will never see again?
i feel like giving up. like there's no chance for me. i want love so badly. i feel like i'm getting desperate. but i know i felt something with kirk and i know that there might have been something with lee... but i don't know if they felt anything towards me.. and if they did, so what? in 4 days lee will be off to texas and who knows if i'll ever see kirk again?
call me obsessive, but he's my every thought. i think about him when i wake up and he's what i'm thinking about when i fall asleep. i've felt like this before, but never on this level. there's something inside me saying *him. he's the one.* now if only i can make HIM see that. i want to be *the one* for him. i think he knows i like him because i took a million pictures of him and i told him he made a great jack sparrow. but i want him to realize i'm serious. it's not just a crush.
when i first saw him i liked him because he acts like jack sparrow, but as i watched him... it was more than that. it was because of the way he acts. and talks. and looks. and i'm afraid that i'm going to never have a chance. i'm not much to look at. he probably goes for the skinny, little, pretty girls. i'm not skinny, i'm not little, and i'm only slightly pretty. but if he could give me a chance to warm up to him, i could talk to him about anything he wishes.
not to make myself sound boy crazy but i "met" another guy on sunday. but he is from texas and is only here till Saturday. i was able to talk to him naturally without taking the time that i usually need to warm up to someone. i asked questions and he answered. and he remembered me from 8 years ago.. does that mean anything? what does this mean, meeting two guys that i clicked with in different ways that i will never see again?
i feel like giving up. like there's no chance for me. i want love so badly. i feel like i'm getting desperate. but i know i felt something with kirk and i know that there might have been something with lee... but i don't know if they felt anything towards me.. and if they did, so what? in 4 days lee will be off to texas and who knows if i'll ever see kirk again?