Sigh
I don't know if this is just a crush, or if i'm inlove. I don't feel like i know him well enough to be inlove with him, but maybe... that's why i love him? Maybe it's because i always want to know more about him. I try to learn what i can but i want to learn it FROM him. i want to hear his voice, i love listening to him talk. I love watching him as he interacts with other people. He's funny and charming. He has got the most gorgeous eyes. I could look into those eyes for forever. I could be with him and never be bored. He always has something new to say (at least he has for the few times i've actually talked to him). He has dreams and ambitions which is a MUST for me. I get jealous when i see couples together and happy. I want to be a part of a couple that is happy. I know being a couple isn't necessary for happiness, but it would make my life easier to live. If i had someone to share secrets with or to tell my dreams to. But everyone says it won't happen if i'm looking for it. So i have to stop looking. I'm not going to give up on him though... I will always try to catch his eye unless he tells me straight out he's not interested. Then of course i would be crushed but i would move on. Right now there is a couple next to me and they're flirting with each other and i'm so jealous. I wish i could have that? It would be nice. But it's not necessary. I don't know.... I wish i could do more. I wish i could know if he likes me at all... And i also do know that everytime i see him, i get butterflies in my stomach and i feel so happy inside. And if he looks at me, i'm in heaven. And for now i guess it's enough...