Just one of those days, no wait weeks!
I keep tellin myself that i am begin stupid and i am pretty sure i am, but then again maybe not.
So tonight is definately one of those nights that i have been having a little too much lately. I feel quite alone and i have not a clue y. i wish i was with someone tonight (a close friend), which make me miss Joyce a whole lot which make my mood worse. I do miss her tons because i miss being able to have conversations and i know she completely gets me.
I know jason is one of my big issues i went from havin fairly long conversation with him every night about a week and half ago, to now him barely talkin to me at all. He hasnt called me in like a week and when i talk to him on the net the past couple of days he says maybe 2 words and then gets up and just leaves without tellin me or says brb and never does. And what little bit we do talk it is usually about some girl he has been hangout with who is hot. When i talk to him i dont want to talk about girls he his hangin with or planning/trying to fuck. Lately i have been seriously doubting goin down there. I thought i really wanted to but now i am thinking that i just may go back to texas where i know i will have a good time.
The whole Michael thing is still bother me a lot and i still havent talked to him. My thought on it though is if he really missed me he would have called like he promised and he hasnt so maybe it is best this way and when he comes home i will just stay away and only go over once and awhile.
Oh Yea and school already sucks!
Sorry about the bitchin i just dont know anymore!
So tonight is definately one of those nights that i have been having a little too much lately. I feel quite alone and i have not a clue y. i wish i was with someone tonight (a close friend), which make me miss Joyce a whole lot which make my mood worse. I do miss her tons because i miss being able to have conversations and i know she completely gets me.
I know jason is one of my big issues i went from havin fairly long conversation with him every night about a week and half ago, to now him barely talkin to me at all. He hasnt called me in like a week and when i talk to him on the net the past couple of days he says maybe 2 words and then gets up and just leaves without tellin me or says brb and never does. And what little bit we do talk it is usually about some girl he has been hangout with who is hot. When i talk to him i dont want to talk about girls he his hangin with or planning/trying to fuck. Lately i have been seriously doubting goin down there. I thought i really wanted to but now i am thinking that i just may go back to texas where i know i will have a good time.
The whole Michael thing is still bother me a lot and i still havent talked to him. My thought on it though is if he really missed me he would have called like he promised and he hasnt so maybe it is best this way and when he comes home i will just stay away and only go over once and awhile.
Oh Yea and school already sucks!
Sorry about the bitchin i just dont know anymore!