admitting shit
i look for myself in other people.
i look for validation
i wish i could ask people if they feel they way i do, but it takes telling them how i feel,
it takes risk cause they might not feel like me
i used to think we were all the same,
in our minds, that everyone was thinking about sex as often as i was.
but apparently they are not,
we all think about it, but guess i think about it more often, unless people haven't been being honest with me.
i think about being evil a lot,
which, the way people react when i tell them this, it seems like they don't think this way.
i obsess about boys i like, especially when they don't like me back.
i get bored during conversations,
i dislike people a lot
i'm pretentious,
i at least know these things are not desired attributes.
a lot of pretentious people don't even realize that they shouldn't be, they think the world should thank them for being so brilliant.
i'm silently arrogant,
meekly even,
but i think, i think a lot of us are.
i see a friend i admire reading a book "morality for beautiful women" (something like that)
imagine, reading that in public,
i wonder what's going on in her head,
she's cute, she's pretty, and she is very intelligent,
i admire her, i like that i can see that she's probably thinking a similar thing to me, she might even go further than me.
i see boys act out of insecurity, and girls too, and it reminds me, that even that remarkable person i know, he feels insecure too, it's ok that sometimes i think i'm a worthless pile. i notice people brag, i watch them get drunk and behave stupidly, i see them try to manipulate, to use people,
i look for humanity in people, so that i can feel human too.
i look for validation
i wish i could ask people if they feel they way i do, but it takes telling them how i feel,
it takes risk cause they might not feel like me
i used to think we were all the same,
in our minds, that everyone was thinking about sex as often as i was.
but apparently they are not,
we all think about it, but guess i think about it more often, unless people haven't been being honest with me.
i think about being evil a lot,
which, the way people react when i tell them this, it seems like they don't think this way.
i obsess about boys i like, especially when they don't like me back.
i get bored during conversations,
i dislike people a lot
i'm pretentious,
i at least know these things are not desired attributes.
a lot of pretentious people don't even realize that they shouldn't be, they think the world should thank them for being so brilliant.
i'm silently arrogant,
meekly even,
but i think, i think a lot of us are.
i see a friend i admire reading a book "morality for beautiful women" (something like that)
imagine, reading that in public,
i wonder what's going on in her head,
she's cute, she's pretty, and she is very intelligent,
i admire her, i like that i can see that she's probably thinking a similar thing to me, she might even go further than me.
i see boys act out of insecurity, and girls too, and it reminds me, that even that remarkable person i know, he feels insecure too, it's ok that sometimes i think i'm a worthless pile. i notice people brag, i watch them get drunk and behave stupidly, i see them try to manipulate, to use people,
i look for humanity in people, so that i can feel human too.