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k so here's the deal. forensics = way fun because I love performing my piece, I love the people in duo, and i love PG. I love it cuz i feel like i belong but at the same time, i feel like if i don't do well then i don't belong and nobody will talk to me. grrrr. our team is weird in both good and bad ways.
btw Tom Hardin is a tool: "The trophy's not that big guys...you don't need to send more than one person" WTF WHO SAYS THAT IN FRONT OF EVERYONE TO A TEAM THAT'S EXCITED CUZ THEY GOT A 6TH PLACE TROPHY? I don't even remember what team they were but i thought that was the bitchiest comment ever.
K so here's the other deal. I feel like I don't have friends sometimes. Maybe i should rephrase that. I feel like if i didn't have Colleen or Maggies or Andy, I would never hang out with anyone because nobody ever calls me and the only way i know if anything is going on is if one of those three calls me. which is fine whatever but sometimes it's hard to feel like nobody will miss you. plus i never see/talk to colleen anymore and it just kinda feels like whenever i want to talk to her she's talking to someone else or kinda just blows me off and it feels to me like my best friend doesn't want to be best friends with me anymore. for prolly about six months i've felt like i have to choose either friend or boyfriend. i don't want to choose and don't feel like i should freakin have to choose.
in the overall picture of life with people starving and murdering other people and killing themselves, everything i just said seems really stupid, but sometimes you just need to get stuff off your mind. i don't feel like i have anyone to talk to about anything going on in my life so i thought i would just throw all that out there and see what happens.
btw Tom Hardin is a tool: "The trophy's not that big guys...you don't need to send more than one person" WTF WHO SAYS THAT IN FRONT OF EVERYONE TO A TEAM THAT'S EXCITED CUZ THEY GOT A 6TH PLACE TROPHY? I don't even remember what team they were but i thought that was the bitchiest comment ever.
K so here's the other deal. I feel like I don't have friends sometimes. Maybe i should rephrase that. I feel like if i didn't have Colleen or Maggies or Andy, I would never hang out with anyone because nobody ever calls me and the only way i know if anything is going on is if one of those three calls me. which is fine whatever but sometimes it's hard to feel like nobody will miss you. plus i never see/talk to colleen anymore and it just kinda feels like whenever i want to talk to her she's talking to someone else or kinda just blows me off and it feels to me like my best friend doesn't want to be best friends with me anymore. for prolly about six months i've felt like i have to choose either friend or boyfriend. i don't want to choose and don't feel like i should freakin have to choose.
in the overall picture of life with people starving and murdering other people and killing themselves, everything i just said seems really stupid, but sometimes you just need to get stuff off your mind. i don't feel like i have anyone to talk to about anything going on in my life so i thought i would just throw all that out there and see what happens.