[Private] The people in my neighborhood
...or just in my life.
Every now and again I have to get this stuff out of my head so that I can stop thinking about it and make sense of it. And there's a lot of people in my head. Chisato and Mari and Haru and Megan and Vicki and Naoko and Rika and Sakura and Kokoro and Nishimoto and Yukito and Nakuru and Hiiragizawa...
...I kinda realized something about him and Nakuru and Spinel while Nakuru had my journal. Which is that they're a family. No, really, a family. Which is sort of neat. Hanging out with Kero taught me about the whole 'brother' thing so it's interesting. Spinel is interesting too. He's sane and smart and...and...hell. Spinel is Yue and Nakuru is Kero. No wonder why I like them so much. I should get in touch again some time. Eventually.
Things are busy here. Classes and jobs keep us all moving. I should find out of that Brat has a job. If he's making Sakura pay for all their dates (or worse, ME) I'll have to kill him. But the rest of us have jobs that means were always coming and going. Getting to spend time with anybody I don't live with is sort of hard to do at the moment. I was lucky enough to snag Chisato in ASP with Saito-sensei again and to get Rika in TAP. I hope we can keep arranging to have classes together. It'd be fun to have a class with Sakura, too. I should check and see what she needs in her major; maybe we could. Her placements keep her busy, though. Little kids and the cheering squad and now this little girl that she's helping. Poor kid.
Of course, I thought 'poor kid' about Naoko, too, and now look at her. She's coming back to herself. I remembered her as the quiet one--and she is--but now she's got her smile back and I hear her laughing and sounding excited as she works at Planet Okonomi. Suzuki favors her so bad. He doesn't even so much as tap her with the knife. She might get a spoon across the knuckles but it's gentle. I think it's because she sometimes brings him books to read. She lends him her ghost stories, I think. Whatever caused her 'missing year' it's over. Or it's gone. Or something. There's still shadows, so I'm going to keep prying. If this is something that could come back at her one day, I want to know. I'm not going to let anybody down the way I let down Yue and Yukito.
And I'll protect Rika and Terada Yoshiyuki as much as I can, too. It feels weird to call him 'Yoshi' when other people are around and he's not, but it's better than talking to Rika about 'Terada'. Sakura would go crazy with questions. I call him Terada whenever he's around so that helps to mislead people into not guessing that they're the same guy. Still, one day this is going to come out. I wonder how. I hope they don't try to do something dumb like pretend they just met and fell in love. That'd be stupid. That'd cause problems down the road. I don't think Terada'd let her go for it, though. Better to have the big stuff out of the way in one go. And I'll stand by them no matter what. Against my better judgement, Terada is okay. He gets Rika. Chisato says he's a good guy to work with, too. Cares about his students a lot AND about his fellow teachers.
It's harder to catch time with guys like Daisuke. He sees Haru at work, at least, and they tend to grab lunch together there. Talking plots like crazy, if Haru's work is anything to go by these days. But still, he's a good guy. The soccer games and basketball are about all we get. Still, with his sister around, that could change. She's nice, too. I wouldn't mind being friends with her. Plus she's closer to my own age and floundering a bit career-wise, too.
Having friends does make it harder to go home and see Dad and Kero. Yeah, I miss the fuzz-bucket, too. It's fun to poke him and he's the only guy I know who loves explosions as much as I do. Dad and I are...on better terms. I think. It's hard to talk to him at times. I wonder if he's still disappointed in me? I don't think so but it's just a little strange now. How to be an adult with your parents is something they don't teach you. Like being an adult with your little sister. Just weird stuff.
I'll never say this, but it makes me glad I have a home with Haru and Kokoro, too. Kokoro is fun to mess with. Not just to mess with her head, but to screw around with. She's a good kid. I could do without her Yuki-hating, but we'll manage. Haru, at least, likes Yukito a little. I think. I'm not sure, but I think he likes Nishimoto more. I explained about how Nishimoto hit me in the eye and I don't know if Haru still believes that it was Yukito or what. I dunno. He says that he likes Nishimoto because 'he's honest'. Whatever the hell that means.
Honest is what Nakuru is. God help me, I think I love that woman. She's a complete bitch at times and as nutty as a fruitcake but she's fun to be with and she's honest about shit. I don't have to guess where I stand with her. She might be the Kero, but she's Kero with better legs and more booze. And I think she likes me more. I think Kero doesn't like me as much because he's worried about his brother-both Yue and Yukito. Yuekito? But he can't get back at me the way Nakuru can. He can't fly into a rage at me in a club like she can. He's reliant on a guy who likes to hold stuff in to let him know what's going on. So he's got more to worry about, I guess.
Yue.
Yukito.
I want to be with them. I want to go home and find them there at the end of the day. I want to go to sleep knowing when I'll see them next and knowing that that 'when' is when I open my eyes. I want them to reach for me, even just as friends. It's a long road. It has been. It's going to be.
If Yue doesn't return the bookmark, I'm going to bring him the hamaya. I want him to have it and whatever protection it could offer him.
So that's everybody, I guess.
Except Nishimoto. I don't like him but I'm going to. Somehow. I should do what that one self-help book said and do lists. One item every day about something I like about him. Hm. I'm going to have to think.
I like the way he hisses when I piss him off.
I can't believe it took me twenty minutes of thinking to come up with that. I can't believe I thought about him for that long. I'm going to go play with some rabbits.
Every now and again I have to get this stuff out of my head so that I can stop thinking about it and make sense of it. And there's a lot of people in my head. Chisato and Mari and Haru and Megan and Vicki and Naoko and Rika and Sakura and Kokoro and Nishimoto and Yukito and Nakuru and Hiiragizawa...
...I kinda realized something about him and Nakuru and Spinel while Nakuru had my journal. Which is that they're a family. No, really, a family. Which is sort of neat. Hanging out with Kero taught me about the whole 'brother' thing so it's interesting. Spinel is interesting too. He's sane and smart and...and...hell. Spinel is Yue and Nakuru is Kero. No wonder why I like them so much. I should get in touch again some time. Eventually.
Things are busy here. Classes and jobs keep us all moving. I should find out of that Brat has a job. If he's making Sakura pay for all their dates (or worse, ME) I'll have to kill him. But the rest of us have jobs that means were always coming and going. Getting to spend time with anybody I don't live with is sort of hard to do at the moment. I was lucky enough to snag Chisato in ASP with Saito-sensei again and to get Rika in TAP. I hope we can keep arranging to have classes together. It'd be fun to have a class with Sakura, too. I should check and see what she needs in her major; maybe we could. Her placements keep her busy, though. Little kids and the cheering squad and now this little girl that she's helping. Poor kid.
Of course, I thought 'poor kid' about Naoko, too, and now look at her. She's coming back to herself. I remembered her as the quiet one--and she is--but now she's got her smile back and I hear her laughing and sounding excited as she works at Planet Okonomi. Suzuki favors her so bad. He doesn't even so much as tap her with the knife. She might get a spoon across the knuckles but it's gentle. I think it's because she sometimes brings him books to read. She lends him her ghost stories, I think. Whatever caused her 'missing year' it's over. Or it's gone. Or something. There's still shadows, so I'm going to keep prying. If this is something that could come back at her one day, I want to know. I'm not going to let anybody down the way I let down Yue and Yukito.
And I'll protect Rika and Terada Yoshiyuki as much as I can, too. It feels weird to call him 'Yoshi' when other people are around and he's not, but it's better than talking to Rika about 'Terada'. Sakura would go crazy with questions. I call him Terada whenever he's around so that helps to mislead people into not guessing that they're the same guy. Still, one day this is going to come out. I wonder how. I hope they don't try to do something dumb like pretend they just met and fell in love. That'd be stupid. That'd cause problems down the road. I don't think Terada'd let her go for it, though. Better to have the big stuff out of the way in one go. And I'll stand by them no matter what. Against my better judgement, Terada is okay. He gets Rika. Chisato says he's a good guy to work with, too. Cares about his students a lot AND about his fellow teachers.
It's harder to catch time with guys like Daisuke. He sees Haru at work, at least, and they tend to grab lunch together there. Talking plots like crazy, if Haru's work is anything to go by these days. But still, he's a good guy. The soccer games and basketball are about all we get. Still, with his sister around, that could change. She's nice, too. I wouldn't mind being friends with her. Plus she's closer to my own age and floundering a bit career-wise, too.
Having friends does make it harder to go home and see Dad and Kero. Yeah, I miss the fuzz-bucket, too. It's fun to poke him and he's the only guy I know who loves explosions as much as I do. Dad and I are...on better terms. I think. It's hard to talk to him at times. I wonder if he's still disappointed in me? I don't think so but it's just a little strange now. How to be an adult with your parents is something they don't teach you. Like being an adult with your little sister. Just weird stuff.
I'll never say this, but it makes me glad I have a home with Haru and Kokoro, too. Kokoro is fun to mess with. Not just to mess with her head, but to screw around with. She's a good kid. I could do without her Yuki-hating, but we'll manage. Haru, at least, likes Yukito a little. I think. I'm not sure, but I think he likes Nishimoto more. I explained about how Nishimoto hit me in the eye and I don't know if Haru still believes that it was Yukito or what. I dunno. He says that he likes Nishimoto because 'he's honest'. Whatever the hell that means.
Honest is what Nakuru is. God help me, I think I love that woman. She's a complete bitch at times and as nutty as a fruitcake but she's fun to be with and she's honest about shit. I don't have to guess where I stand with her. She might be the Kero, but she's Kero with better legs and more booze. And I think she likes me more. I think Kero doesn't like me as much because he's worried about his brother-both Yue and Yukito. Yuekito? But he can't get back at me the way Nakuru can. He can't fly into a rage at me in a club like she can. He's reliant on a guy who likes to hold stuff in to let him know what's going on. So he's got more to worry about, I guess.
Yue.
Yukito.
I want to be with them. I want to go home and find them there at the end of the day. I want to go to sleep knowing when I'll see them next and knowing that that 'when' is when I open my eyes. I want them to reach for me, even just as friends. It's a long road. It has been. It's going to be.
If Yue doesn't return the bookmark, I'm going to bring him the hamaya. I want him to have it and whatever protection it could offer him.
So that's everybody, I guess.
Except Nishimoto. I don't like him but I'm going to. Somehow. I should do what that one self-help book said and do lists. One item every day about something I like about him. Hm. I'm going to have to think.
I like the way he hisses when I piss him off.
I can't believe it took me twenty minutes of thinking to come up with that. I can't believe I thought about him for that long. I'm going to go play with some rabbits.