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[peacepetals]

Has anyone else ever had a day--or a month--when they felt like the whole world hates them? Like, when you're being yourself, staying honest and forward with everyone, trying to listen and be sensitive to peoples' opinions and feelings, and still everyone, either silently or outwardly, makes you feel inferior? When you're absolutely convinced that when you turn your back, everyone converges and starts talking about you? I hate knowing that I have to defend myself when I know I didn't do anything wrong. I hate worrying about whether people hate me or not, whether anyone ever wants to talk to me again or if they just do because they have to. I hate feeling like everyone would rather talk to anyone else in the world but me. I'd like to pretend that stuff doesn't matter, and that I could just say "fuck you" to anyone who makes me feel like this, but it's never that easy, is it?

I need a break. Thank god for the Paris trip coming up. I just hope the riots don't get any worse.