Is it all over?
Yay! i cut Laurs hair today!! we were a little worried for a while there, but i think it turned out all right. i'm hungry, i havn't eaten since 3. if i go to bed, my tummy better stop hurting. ive been doing my history outline since 7, i still have about 2hrs worth to go... and all my math, history worksheets and bull shit latin busy work. ive also been listening to 101.5 since 7 to try and win coldplay tickets for my brothers b-day, but they never did it! damn them! zzzzz. tired... when i was coming home, i saw ryan, devin, and scott walking by my street, it was weird. Anyway, we're celebrating my brothers birthday tomorrow, its actually on the 23rd. hes going to be 20, and i can hardly believe it! i often wonder about us. i always thought that we were really close, but i worry. my mom and her brothers were really close but they don't randomly pick up the phone and call one another. ive come to the terrifying realization of, "what if this is it?". We had our childhood, now were done. i dont want for us to only see each other when we're visiting our parents, or call when there's a family tragedy. i dont want it all to be over, i want my teenage brother back, as unpleasent as he often was. he has a life now, and i dont see where i fit into it. it hurts that i dont see him everyday, and even more that on the days that i do see him or talk to him he is not there for me or listening. Not as though i ever have anything interesting to say (as u would know if you are reading this), but i miss just having him here and not talking about anything important. i wish one could be forever 16