Could have been worse....

[peaceofmynd]

Saturday was fun. And by fun i mean horrifying and completely irritating. Woke up early to make myself lunch, didnt take as long as i had expected. I should probably point out why i was making lunch, i was on my way into work. Anyway, i was a bit early but figured why not head in early and get some shelving done. Stopped as the light turned red, didnt notice the guy behind me had dropped his cell phone and didnt notice me in front of him. Bam. Car accident. I get shot 60 yards ahead, without even hitting the gas peddle. I was very lucky that i was the first person at the stop light and that weren't any cars coming to the right or left of me. My car however, was not as lucky and the odds of it being fixed and returned to me are slim to none. Apparently the driver of the other car separated his shoulder. I was fine. A little whiplash that im still feeling in my back and not suddenly my neck, but all in all, im no worse for wear. I didnt even see him coming. I guess that makes it better. Cause had, i might have tightened up to brace for impact and broken something. Who knows. Point is, i was lucky. And yeah, not the biggest life and death situation ever, but you just never know when your number is up. Im not lucky to be alive, my life wasn't ever in danger really. Im lucky i wasn't hurt bad, i wasn't hurt for life. Im lucky that the only pain i feel is residual from my neck go forward and backward so quickly and violently. Im actually lucky that the constant pain ive been in for 3 days, isn't worse. isn't permanent. I can deal with that. It sucks that i have to stress over having a ride places, and that puts strain on my loved ones, but it really keeps things in perspective. I wish i could say man i had it all wrong on how i view life, that i don't cherish enough in my life or take the time to enjoy the little things and smell the roses. But the truth is, i do those things all the time. I dont take much for granted. I enjoy those special moments with friends and family. This just reinforces the fact that im doing something right. Cause when i got hit, i didnt panic, i didnt feel fear, i wasn't ready to pray to god for my salvation. I smiled and just went for the ride, cause i knew if i was gonna die there, i wouldn't be leaving with any regrets really. My friends and family would know i loved them and they would mourn me. I have nothing to worry about. I dont want to die, nor do i look forward to it. Im just saying, i wasn't scared. I was at peace with whatever. I laughed after it happened and got out of my car asking how the other guy was. Haha. Man, boy scout to the end, apparently?

I dont fear death but i dont go looking for it. I love my friends and family. I look forward every day to my life.

i just could have done without that accident on saturday...bummer. but eh, life goes on right?

:)