Didn't see that coming....
I just got advice on how i can/should better my life...from my brother.
::deep sigh::
it was hard to not be a dick, cause his heart was in the right place, but god damn it that was not fun for me at all. haha. He was right though. I have no real direction right now. I wanna finish my degree and get my BBA but what am i going to do with it? I have no credit, i live at home, i work part time at a bookstore and coach football during the fall...where am i going with all this? I don't know. But he's right. I have no objective once i get my degree...He wants me to move to....::sigh:: California with him in two years. He and my cousin Steve are moving out there cause the Meccas for both of their desired fields (hollywood and sports) are located in the golden state. (i can just hear erick and jordan now plotting to get me out there...dorks.)
Im so proud of my brother. The way he's turned his life around. The goals he's set. The pace he works at. The motivation and desire he displays.
Makes me wonder when i lost my passion for growth in life. Cause im nowhere near that. I don't have that same vigor and intensity, except when im coaching. Hmm. Maybe that's my calling? I dunno. You gotta win first, and i haven't done much of that yet. Im working on it though.
Im in a rut, and im trying to shake things up. Not for the sake of change, but for the sake of bettering my life to a point of independence and self sustainable actions. I want to build my own life and im going to. I need to. im 26, im still very young but the world isn't quite as large and in front of me anymore. My loved ones are moving on with their lives, bettering their lives and im sitting here, typing on an online blog.
I think it's time i make something of myself. Live up to the reputation. See my potential all the way through.
I've only got my self to blame for my current state of affairs, but i've only got myself to trust in and to take care of. It's me time now. And i plan on making the most of it.
::nods::
::deep sigh::
it was hard to not be a dick, cause his heart was in the right place, but god damn it that was not fun for me at all. haha. He was right though. I have no real direction right now. I wanna finish my degree and get my BBA but what am i going to do with it? I have no credit, i live at home, i work part time at a bookstore and coach football during the fall...where am i going with all this? I don't know. But he's right. I have no objective once i get my degree...He wants me to move to....::sigh:: California with him in two years. He and my cousin Steve are moving out there cause the Meccas for both of their desired fields (hollywood and sports) are located in the golden state. (i can just hear erick and jordan now plotting to get me out there...dorks.)
Im so proud of my brother. The way he's turned his life around. The goals he's set. The pace he works at. The motivation and desire he displays.
Makes me wonder when i lost my passion for growth in life. Cause im nowhere near that. I don't have that same vigor and intensity, except when im coaching. Hmm. Maybe that's my calling? I dunno. You gotta win first, and i haven't done much of that yet. Im working on it though.
Im in a rut, and im trying to shake things up. Not for the sake of change, but for the sake of bettering my life to a point of independence and self sustainable actions. I want to build my own life and im going to. I need to. im 26, im still very young but the world isn't quite as large and in front of me anymore. My loved ones are moving on with their lives, bettering their lives and im sitting here, typing on an online blog.
I think it's time i make something of myself. Live up to the reputation. See my potential all the way through.
I've only got my self to blame for my current state of affairs, but i've only got myself to trust in and to take care of. It's me time now. And i plan on making the most of it.
::nods::