as we journey to the corners of our minds
i cant sleep again. this seriously not good. friday i ended up realli falling asleep in science class. it might have onli been for 15 minutes but it was deep. burbrink came over and woke me up. heh.
330-ish
i love the remake of "bridge over troubled water" by charlotte church. its wats playing as i type this.silently. i dont want to wake mi mom.
i wish i knew what to do. im shure u dont kno wat im talking about, this is mostly for miself. feel free to ignore this. gina, u kno wat im talking about.
hmm. i hate distance. it sux so madly u dont kno. it paralyzes me in choices ive made and our readi to make, but cant, i have to wait until summer roles around. this is the first time i realli want summer to happen. serious. before i didnt want to leave mi friends at school and be bored in this nothing-but-boring city. but now, now i cant wait until it comes. the sooner the better i guess. but not too soon. i have things that need to b done and accomplished. lyke, for instance, mi attempts to be closest to perfection as possible for me. this is the 1st year im going to have a new years resolution (sp-is that the word?). b4 i thought they were stupid and senseless but now its jus wat i need. i want to make mi skin good, stop the attacks. this will take some help of mi doctor but maybay mom will find 10 minutes to call him in her busi video game playing time. hm. i want to lose some weight. i kno i am not obese in any way shape or form but sometimes this feels worse. i weigh 118 last time i wieghed miself. i watch the way i eat and it sickens me. i dont eat anything good at all. i want to lose this pouch of mine that is holding all this bad weight. lastly, i want to take mi momey and maybay, jus maybay, get some clothes i realli realli lyke. i hate alot of the things i wear and if i could wear anything possible mi wardrobe would be SO diffrent. if i cant express miself thro personality i might as well as do it thro phhysical apperance. oh, and possibly (add this to mi resolution list) i could have a change of personality. make miself less negative towards miself and find out mi cause for hidden depression. well thats mi goals (new years resolutions) to accomplish b4 summer roles around. oh, now with all those things i thought of doing down and readable, i dont think i want summer coming as soon as i was hoping it would.
thats the end of mi lil talk. later days. hope ur sleepong well (or atleast after u have read this u will b involuntarily).
330-ish
i love the remake of "bridge over troubled water" by charlotte church. its wats playing as i type this.silently. i dont want to wake mi mom.
i wish i knew what to do. im shure u dont kno wat im talking about, this is mostly for miself. feel free to ignore this. gina, u kno wat im talking about.
hmm. i hate distance. it sux so madly u dont kno. it paralyzes me in choices ive made and our readi to make, but cant, i have to wait until summer roles around. this is the first time i realli want summer to happen. serious. before i didnt want to leave mi friends at school and be bored in this nothing-but-boring city. but now, now i cant wait until it comes. the sooner the better i guess. but not too soon. i have things that need to b done and accomplished. lyke, for instance, mi attempts to be closest to perfection as possible for me. this is the 1st year im going to have a new years resolution (sp-is that the word?). b4 i thought they were stupid and senseless but now its jus wat i need. i want to make mi skin good, stop the attacks. this will take some help of mi doctor but maybay mom will find 10 minutes to call him in her busi video game playing time. hm. i want to lose some weight. i kno i am not obese in any way shape or form but sometimes this feels worse. i weigh 118 last time i wieghed miself. i watch the way i eat and it sickens me. i dont eat anything good at all. i want to lose this pouch of mine that is holding all this bad weight. lastly, i want to take mi momey and maybay, jus maybay, get some clothes i realli realli lyke. i hate alot of the things i wear and if i could wear anything possible mi wardrobe would be SO diffrent. if i cant express miself thro personality i might as well as do it thro phhysical apperance. oh, and possibly (add this to mi resolution list) i could have a change of personality. make miself less negative towards miself and find out mi cause for hidden depression. well thats mi goals (new years resolutions) to accomplish b4 summer roles around. oh, now with all those things i thought of doing down and readable, i dont think i want summer coming as soon as i was hoping it would.
thats the end of mi lil talk. later days. hope ur sleepong well (or atleast after u have read this u will b involuntarily).