Here...
So the summer has finally come to a close,
FINALLY.
So after all the who-rah and who-hahs,
I finally ask myself,
how was your summer Hilary?
And I'll be honest,
this is by far, the worst summer
that I have had to date.
This summer has really tested my emotions
in more ways then one,
and I think in the end,
has not made me a stronger person,
but has weakened me.
I walked into this summer with great goals,
and I didn't achieve any of them
but rather,
put my emotions and the emotions of those I love
on the line.
You may think,
if all this bad stuff has happened to you this summer,
wouldn't you come out stronger?
The answer is no,
at least not for me.
I have been brought down so much by the people
who surround me daily
that the person who I really am has surrendered to the
person that those around me want to be.
This summer,
I worked consistently,
however all my money ended up going to things
that they shouldn't have gone to,
I.E. fines and other stuff I had to pay off.
There is a boy I truly love
and over the summer I have suppressed my feelings from him,
but now,
its as if I can't suppress them any longer.
I love him,
yeah,
but I feel that when I am having a problem,
I can't come to him to talk about it.
I know that sounds harsh,
but its not about that.
Its about feeling unashamed about going to someone
for support,
but I've always felt that when I've had problems this summer
I couldn't talk to him about it without feeling
like a major burden
with only negative things occurring in her life.
What its about is a lack of communication,
thats what it is.
I love him,
but when I am ever having a problem,
I usually don't tell him about it,
because I feel its something he just doesn't really want to hear.
Because of that,
I feel that a lot of the trust our relationship was built upon
has disappeared.
It hurts to bring it up,
but that is the honest truth.
I even want to discuss this with him,
but I feel like when I bring it up,
he thinks I'm turning into a naggy, stereotypical girl
who just wants problems,
and I know thats a major turn off.
But thats just not it at all.
ALL I WANT IS LOVE AND SUPPORT FROM THE BOY
THAT I LOVE AND SUPPORT.
I would really like to feel secure with him
because hes a super trill boy.
FINALLY.
So after all the who-rah and who-hahs,
I finally ask myself,
how was your summer Hilary?
And I'll be honest,
this is by far, the worst summer
that I have had to date.
This summer has really tested my emotions
in more ways then one,
and I think in the end,
has not made me a stronger person,
but has weakened me.
I walked into this summer with great goals,
and I didn't achieve any of them
but rather,
put my emotions and the emotions of those I love
on the line.
You may think,
if all this bad stuff has happened to you this summer,
wouldn't you come out stronger?
The answer is no,
at least not for me.
I have been brought down so much by the people
who surround me daily
that the person who I really am has surrendered to the
person that those around me want to be.
This summer,
I worked consistently,
however all my money ended up going to things
that they shouldn't have gone to,
I.E. fines and other stuff I had to pay off.
There is a boy I truly love
and over the summer I have suppressed my feelings from him,
but now,
its as if I can't suppress them any longer.
I love him,
yeah,
but I feel that when I am having a problem,
I can't come to him to talk about it.
I know that sounds harsh,
but its not about that.
Its about feeling unashamed about going to someone
for support,
but I've always felt that when I've had problems this summer
I couldn't talk to him about it without feeling
like a major burden
with only negative things occurring in her life.
What its about is a lack of communication,
thats what it is.
I love him,
but when I am ever having a problem,
I usually don't tell him about it,
because I feel its something he just doesn't really want to hear.
Because of that,
I feel that a lot of the trust our relationship was built upon
has disappeared.
It hurts to bring it up,
but that is the honest truth.
I even want to discuss this with him,
but I feel like when I bring it up,
he thinks I'm turning into a naggy, stereotypical girl
who just wants problems,
and I know thats a major turn off.
But thats just not it at all.
ALL I WANT IS LOVE AND SUPPORT FROM THE BOY
THAT I LOVE AND SUPPORT.
I would really like to feel secure with him
because hes a super trill boy.