THIS IS A LOAD OF B.S.!!!
***so on a GOOD note: although i am still completely petrified to be back in the single world b/c there was a slight bit of time when i was actually happy with my life the pain has eased to a horrific "my heart feels like it's bein stepped on" instead of the all-too-well-known "my heart feels like it is being clawed at and i can't eat anything b/c i'm so upset". so that's a good note but i still would do pretty much anything to get him back no matter what. but i guess life has it's own plan for me.
***on a MEDIOCRE note: i'm thinkin about changing my mind about college. i mean i know i said i was gonna go to usc-columbia and room with care but i just don't feel like that's what's the right thing for me. so i'm gonna visit usc-aiken and lander b/c i don't know i actually kinda like the idea of going to USCA and havin a dorm w/sah-ray-ray. it just seems much more logical and like "me". although this will probably piss numerous people off, i guess they're just gonna have to live with it b/c after all it is MY future and MY life, not everyone elses.
***on a BAD note: a certain few people which will be left nameless, however one of them happens to be one of my very best friends so you know who they are anyways, have obviously decided to ditch me even though i was the one to introduce them all and although they were my best friends. all i'm saying guys and you know who the three of you are...if you want to spend time with kev w/out me or whatever or if all three of you don't want me around it would be much easy for you just to say it to my face, even though i have quite enough to deal with anyways. i might bitch slap you but believe me that would be a whole heck of a lot easier than just not inviting me to stuff and then writing about it where you know i'll see it. it just pisses me off that's all. and for the record, this is to both of you, he has a girlfriend and he's NEVER gonna leave her. i learned this..he loves her and he's happy with her now so just leave it alone and let the kid be happy.
***SORRY IF THIS MADE ANYONE ANGRY...BUT I'VE HAD A REALLY CRAPPY WEEK AND I REALLY DON'T WANT TO HAVE STUFF ADDED TO IT BUT OBVIOUSLY I DIDN'T GET THE CHOICE.
***on a MEDIOCRE note: i'm thinkin about changing my mind about college. i mean i know i said i was gonna go to usc-columbia and room with care but i just don't feel like that's what's the right thing for me. so i'm gonna visit usc-aiken and lander b/c i don't know i actually kinda like the idea of going to USCA and havin a dorm w/sah-ray-ray. it just seems much more logical and like "me". although this will probably piss numerous people off, i guess they're just gonna have to live with it b/c after all it is MY future and MY life, not everyone elses.
***on a BAD note: a certain few people which will be left nameless, however one of them happens to be one of my very best friends so you know who they are anyways, have obviously decided to ditch me even though i was the one to introduce them all and although they were my best friends. all i'm saying guys and you know who the three of you are...if you want to spend time with kev w/out me or whatever or if all three of you don't want me around it would be much easy for you just to say it to my face, even though i have quite enough to deal with anyways. i might bitch slap you but believe me that would be a whole heck of a lot easier than just not inviting me to stuff and then writing about it where you know i'll see it. it just pisses me off that's all. and for the record, this is to both of you, he has a girlfriend and he's NEVER gonna leave her. i learned this..he loves her and he's happy with her now so just leave it alone and let the kid be happy.
***SORRY IF THIS MADE ANYONE ANGRY...BUT I'VE HAD A REALLY CRAPPY WEEK AND I REALLY DON'T WANT TO HAVE STUFF ADDED TO IT BUT OBVIOUSLY I DIDN'T GET THE CHOICE.