The idea of romance
All of it feels warm in that melt your heart kind of way. The sensation of surprise kisses on moon-lit walks upon rose petals seems dreamy and sweet, but that's not ever going to happen. I've thrown out a lot of those ideas of "romantic" moments simply because I don't believe it anymore. Those movies make it worse. And I'm considered that the "romance" I hear about my friends in relationships isn't really true, but some fantasized illusion I have in my mind. It's refreshing to clear out the baggage in my mind.
So, after feeling my new perspective shift, I take my independent, stubborn, hard-working self out on a walk. Having finished a nice dinner I made all for me, I thought I would complete the evening with a cinema movie. When I got there I realized that 8.50 was a whole lot of $ and I am worth not feeling really sorry for myself to spend that kind of money on a movie about lovie dovie romance that sounded stupid and far fetched. So I went to the bookstore to get my free dosage of pop and culture.
While I was there a young fellow introduces himself to me. He approached me after we had met eyes twice, which was accompanied by a smile at the second glance. He later said that since he felt the "energy" (from the glance and smile) he acted on intuition and approached me.
We closed down the store and walked around downtown. I had spent 4 hours with a complete stranger and the experience was all of what I had resisted: Romance.
I got to know what that felt like again. I had this passion, this curiousity, that empty-stomach-that-feels-full kind of thing going on that made me ask big questions, made me feel connected, and made me want to jump on him. Which I didn't do, but was very close to.
It was very exciting.
So, after feeling my new perspective shift, I take my independent, stubborn, hard-working self out on a walk. Having finished a nice dinner I made all for me, I thought I would complete the evening with a cinema movie. When I got there I realized that 8.50 was a whole lot of $ and I am worth not feeling really sorry for myself to spend that kind of money on a movie about lovie dovie romance that sounded stupid and far fetched. So I went to the bookstore to get my free dosage of pop and culture.
While I was there a young fellow introduces himself to me. He approached me after we had met eyes twice, which was accompanied by a smile at the second glance. He later said that since he felt the "energy" (from the glance and smile) he acted on intuition and approached me.
We closed down the store and walked around downtown. I had spent 4 hours with a complete stranger and the experience was all of what I had resisted: Romance.
I got to know what that felt like again. I had this passion, this curiousity, that empty-stomach-that-feels-full kind of thing going on that made me ask big questions, made me feel connected, and made me want to jump on him. Which I didn't do, but was very close to.
It was very exciting.