Jul 19, 2010 01:38
Tonight is another one of those summer nights where I've tried to go to sleep and just felt like I can't. and if you think you can't sleep...then you usually can't (in my experience). Lately there have been nights where I've had to stay up 'till I'm exhausted so I can fall asleep properly. I guess part of it is feeling a bit of a useless bum, what with not having things to do and bumming off the 'rents like I know I shouldn't. If I was smart, I would be preparing somehow for this year. I don't know how, but... something. I dunno. I'm scheduled to talk with a vet about volunteering at his clinic (rescue?) a week from now-ish, but that's a week from now and less than a month before I head back to college, so I don't even know if they'll want me for such a short term.
Blah. I usually like to think of stories before I go to bed while I try to sleep, but I haven't really been able to make myself do that, which is causing the sleeping issue. Audiobooks I know really well work sometimes, but I left my iPod downstairs and I don't like to rely on that... I guess I should just be ok with it, and fall asleep at 3 or whenever and wake up just before 12 but goddamn it makes me feel like a loser.
I guess I need a decent month-long project I can work on that will actually make me feel accomplished when I'm working on it...if that's even possible. Anyone have any ideas?
blah,
sleep,
summer