It's time to focus on me
I had a really good and really not so good weekend. I will write about the good (morris dancing, ritual) in another post. I need to tackle the not so good.
I feel like I am neglecting my friends on LJ and elsewhere.
Even worse has been the fact that I have neglected myself and MY needs. I have been seeing a doctor and a chiropractor about a couple of things and getting more exercise but I also need to focus on myself in other ways - spiritual ways and with free time to do the things I need to do to make me happy. I need to relax and have no commitments for a while. I need to spend time meditating, reading, watching TV and relaxing. I have put my life on hold recently.
My health - especially my back - has been very painful this weekend, and on and off during the week. I am trying to make another chiropractor's appointment.
I have been spending the last couple of months doing stuff for other people. The things I have been doing for other people I have done without complaint, because I wanted to, and because I LOVE them. I have had a lot to do and still have a few things to finish up.
However, this has meant that I have let things slip. I haven't been able to keep up with emails and LJ like I want to. I need to put a stop to taking on any more commitments right now and just get caught up on what is important to me and to center and ground myself.
I have to put things on hold for other people and focus on me. I want to get to the point where I can feel healthy again.
It has gotten to the point where I have to tell people:
1. I don't have time to do _________ for you now, but talk to me later and I might be able to deal with it.
2. I simply cannot do that and I don't see a time in the near future when I can.
I have actually had people be kinda snarky with me when I have to tell them "not now" and that I have to focus on me. :-( Unfortunately, this makes me feel less than good about doing much for them in the future, either.
I feel slightly guilty about this. I know I shouldn't, and I am trying to let this go. Even worse, I am afraid people more people will be angry with me because I haven't been commenting in LJ or answering emails.
I always feel bad about asking people to be patient with me, but at this point I HAVE to. So, until I get back from Italy I need to focus on myself, healing me, and not doing so much for other people. This doesn't mean that I don't care, but it does mean that I need to attend to my own needs so that I can be the best person possible.
I appreciate you being patient and gentle with me. I just need a couple of weeks to regroup, take care of my health and my needs and then I can focus on other things. I will still be here, and I will still be reading and commenting on journals, but only when I have the time and when I feel well enough to do so.
Much love to you.
I feel like I am neglecting my friends on LJ and elsewhere.
Even worse has been the fact that I have neglected myself and MY needs. I have been seeing a doctor and a chiropractor about a couple of things and getting more exercise but I also need to focus on myself in other ways - spiritual ways and with free time to do the things I need to do to make me happy. I need to relax and have no commitments for a while. I need to spend time meditating, reading, watching TV and relaxing. I have put my life on hold recently.
My health - especially my back - has been very painful this weekend, and on and off during the week. I am trying to make another chiropractor's appointment.
I have been spending the last couple of months doing stuff for other people. The things I have been doing for other people I have done without complaint, because I wanted to, and because I LOVE them. I have had a lot to do and still have a few things to finish up.
However, this has meant that I have let things slip. I haven't been able to keep up with emails and LJ like I want to. I need to put a stop to taking on any more commitments right now and just get caught up on what is important to me and to center and ground myself.
I have to put things on hold for other people and focus on me. I want to get to the point where I can feel healthy again.
It has gotten to the point where I have to tell people:
1. I don't have time to do _________ for you now, but talk to me later and I might be able to deal with it.
2. I simply cannot do that and I don't see a time in the near future when I can.
I have actually had people be kinda snarky with me when I have to tell them "not now" and that I have to focus on me. :-( Unfortunately, this makes me feel less than good about doing much for them in the future, either.
I feel slightly guilty about this. I know I shouldn't, and I am trying to let this go. Even worse, I am afraid people more people will be angry with me because I haven't been commenting in LJ or answering emails.
I always feel bad about asking people to be patient with me, but at this point I HAVE to. So, until I get back from Italy I need to focus on myself, healing me, and not doing so much for other people. This doesn't mean that I don't care, but it does mean that I need to attend to my own needs so that I can be the best person possible.
I appreciate you being patient and gentle with me. I just need a couple of weeks to regroup, take care of my health and my needs and then I can focus on other things. I will still be here, and I will still be reading and commenting on journals, but only when I have the time and when I feel well enough to do so.
Much love to you.