If I were only exhausted this would make much more sense
I feel so drained right now, the opposite of content...It is a new form of stress that I have not experienced, because I so badly want to do well for everything to come out but I know that freaking out won't help and I am so much so exhausted mentally, physically, I just need a break, an hour, a day for myself to listen to music, and watch a movie with friends, and play apple to apples. I want time to take a long hot shower and not feel guilty, I want to actually be looking forward to spring break. I want a hot cup of good coffee and a quiet spot in Miller and the words to just fly off my fingers as I type an A paper for history. I don't want life to be easy but I want it to matter.