What can i say?
well... its been a while since i wrote here.. i have a little time on my hands between classes and i decided to try it out.... we will see how long i can keep it up. I started wrting in an actual book 2 nights ago cuz i couldnt get to bed, You know, its really relaxing.... i always heard people saying thigs like "write down your thoughts" or" put i on paper" or somthing to that exstent... but i never relized how right they were... i wrote like 4 pages and then my hand was just falling off.. i wanted to write more.
Well i started here today cuz im confused.... Latley i been feeling lonlier then usuall... I miss Ny and al my friends there.... its been 4 years since i seen anything or anyone of them.... and its been bugging me more and more. its frustrating. I want a BF. lol i knwo it sounds like superfical or somthing.. but ive been single for a year now, and befor i was ok with it because i didnt want to be tied down or anything... but right now, i jsut want someone to hold? lol... my MSN screen names is so desperate. lol. its somthing along the lines of " need a BF but the guy i want isnt intrested in me so any other volunteers?" lol. funny thing is ive gotten offers, but they r all out of state. lol. thats another reason i wanna go back. ive got so many peple to be with there.. just like friends... i miss them all. i miss my life there. But getting back to the SN on MSN.... There is a guy... and i dont even know y i like him.. or if i liek him at all.. its so weird.. i havnt like "had a crush" on someone in a while and im not used to it. lol. i got out of the habit of thinking about someone so much. I dont know.... he is like.. all wrong for me... then again. i always seem to like the wrong guys... Prime example was Misha... but thank good i got over that (mostly) i thank god almost every day that i relized wat a fucker that bastard can be. e is a mnanipulative little bitch.. but anyway. im done with that... then there was phil. i had fun like the 2 times i saw him during out "relationship" u cant even call it a real realation ship cuz ... well.. it just wasnt. lol. Then there where people like timpe... i actually liked him. lol. then again i was like 13 and had few frends. lol. besides.. he was cute.. for a while. lol. i saw him the other day and was like... wat the hell was i thinking befor? he just gave me a funny look. lol. i wont go into any detail about any other ex's those r just the most obvious... but the point is.. that this guy i like now.. on the one hand he is exactly "my type" if u know wat i mean. he fits anything i aver wanted in a guy (well mostly) for the superficial part (looks) he is really tall (taller then me even wen im in heels) he is older then me, he isnt liek the most gorgeous guy i have ever seen.. but somthing about him attracts me, and i think he is good looking (some people wont agree with me but i dont give a shit) he has distinct facial features and i dunno.. he isnt bad to look at lol. AND he has nice hands and pretty eyes... lol. Most of all he is russian.. that was one of my main things... he loves cats (my soft spot). He is kinda shy... but im assuming he has some intelligence (even though he has smoked pot a few times... but i can forgive that... its not adictive and we all have our flaws lol he isnt a druggie....). Im sure most people have figured out who it is.. at least people that know the both of us, but i would appreciate it if no one says anything to him (if u even read this) lol. Anyway... i dont knw what eles to say for now and this already long enough.... but im sure ill be back with more in a few minutes or maybe just later today....
lots of luv,
-Kitten-
Well i started here today cuz im confused.... Latley i been feeling lonlier then usuall... I miss Ny and al my friends there.... its been 4 years since i seen anything or anyone of them.... and its been bugging me more and more. its frustrating. I want a BF. lol i knwo it sounds like superfical or somthing.. but ive been single for a year now, and befor i was ok with it because i didnt want to be tied down or anything... but right now, i jsut want someone to hold? lol... my MSN screen names is so desperate. lol. its somthing along the lines of " need a BF but the guy i want isnt intrested in me so any other volunteers?" lol. funny thing is ive gotten offers, but they r all out of state. lol. thats another reason i wanna go back. ive got so many peple to be with there.. just like friends... i miss them all. i miss my life there. But getting back to the SN on MSN.... There is a guy... and i dont even know y i like him.. or if i liek him at all.. its so weird.. i havnt like "had a crush" on someone in a while and im not used to it. lol. i got out of the habit of thinking about someone so much. I dont know.... he is like.. all wrong for me... then again. i always seem to like the wrong guys... Prime example was Misha... but thank good i got over that (mostly) i thank god almost every day that i relized wat a fucker that bastard can be. e is a mnanipulative little bitch.. but anyway. im done with that... then there was phil. i had fun like the 2 times i saw him during out "relationship" u cant even call it a real realation ship cuz ... well.. it just wasnt. lol. Then there where people like timpe... i actually liked him. lol. then again i was like 13 and had few frends. lol. besides.. he was cute.. for a while. lol. i saw him the other day and was like... wat the hell was i thinking befor? he just gave me a funny look. lol. i wont go into any detail about any other ex's those r just the most obvious... but the point is.. that this guy i like now.. on the one hand he is exactly "my type" if u know wat i mean. he fits anything i aver wanted in a guy (well mostly) for the superficial part (looks) he is really tall (taller then me even wen im in heels) he is older then me, he isnt liek the most gorgeous guy i have ever seen.. but somthing about him attracts me, and i think he is good looking (some people wont agree with me but i dont give a shit) he has distinct facial features and i dunno.. he isnt bad to look at lol. AND he has nice hands and pretty eyes... lol. Most of all he is russian.. that was one of my main things... he loves cats (my soft spot). He is kinda shy... but im assuming he has some intelligence (even though he has smoked pot a few times... but i can forgive that... its not adictive and we all have our flaws lol he isnt a druggie....). Im sure most people have figured out who it is.. at least people that know the both of us, but i would appreciate it if no one says anything to him (if u even read this) lol. Anyway... i dont knw what eles to say for now and this already long enough.... but im sure ill be back with more in a few minutes or maybe just later today....
lots of luv,
-Kitten-