Sometimes I forget you exist
It's harder than it should be. It can be stressful, nerve-wracking, even scary because it could expose pieces of me and my insecurities. But it's something that I wish I could do more. Talk. Let the words I'm thinking slip from my lips without feeling stupid or wanting to take it back. To say, "Hi, I'm Eva." It's what I want to do, 'cause people can be cool and I want to know them and I want them to know me. And what kind of a Libran am I if I'm not a social butterfly?
During a stressful and panic-y four-hour drive yesterday, by the person sitting right next to me, I was told something hilarious that stuck in my head. "Sometimes I forget you exist."
That produced a giggle from me. You know why? The person who's known me my whole life said it to me. She continued, "...because you're so quiet." Yes, quite funny, I thought. I hadn't said one word so far the whole ride. (But you might not either if you were there, it wasn't the best of situations but I won't get into that.)
Then I thought, if the person who knows me best forgets I exist, why should I worry about what I say or do at all? 'Cause obviously, it'd be easier for someone I barely know to forget I exist.
Okay, I feel really stupid about this post now. But that's okay, I won't close the window 'cause you'll forget I exist here in about 5 minutes.
During a stressful and panic-y four-hour drive yesterday, by the person sitting right next to me, I was told something hilarious that stuck in my head. "Sometimes I forget you exist."
That produced a giggle from me. You know why? The person who's known me my whole life said it to me. She continued, "...because you're so quiet." Yes, quite funny, I thought. I hadn't said one word so far the whole ride. (But you might not either if you were there, it wasn't the best of situations but I won't get into that.)
Then I thought, if the person who knows me best forgets I exist, why should I worry about what I say or do at all? 'Cause obviously, it'd be easier for someone I barely know to forget I exist.
Okay, I feel really stupid about this post now. But that's okay, I won't close the window 'cause you'll forget I exist here in about 5 minutes.