Listen.
Today, was strange. I think I ran into a good omen though.
Today wasn't good. I was in a terrible mood. I injured my back two weeks ago and thought I was over it, but I'm not. I'm really hurt and I did it in a really stupid way, I admit. But I've still been going where I need to be, doing what I need to do. Last night I was in excruciating pain but because of a job the other person that's running sound for Angel Street couldn't work it for me. Also, we open Angel Street in 2 days! As most of you know, I work on building the sets and the last couple days before a show are imperative. Now, I'm completely useless.. I can't bend, or move much at all. I couldn't do any hard work.. And tonight Robin made fun of me for hurting my back while bowling. I just got this overwhelming feeling of being worthless. And I broke down right there. I don't think she noticed, maybe she did, but I was in the catwalks and she was in the house. I really want to go in to the shop and work. I think about it constantly and it makes me really frustrated that I can't. I don't think Robin meant to make me feel bad. It just really hurt my feelings..
I tried to find somewhere to go that I could be alone and just let it out. I ended up going outside and sitting at a picnic table. After about 5 minutes this random lady asks me about the smoking policy on campus. She eventually comes over to smoke a cigarette at the table with me, after asking me if it would bother me. I didn't mind. I just quit smoking 3 or 4 weeks ago, but I still didn't mind. This lady had to of noticed that I'd obviously been crying. She just talked to me. We were humans to each other. Two women that just weren't having a good day. We connected. This lady had to be about my mother's age, maybe a little younger. I didn't say much, I just listened to her, the way I always listen. She was just telling me about this girl she adopted and how she was having trouble with her. When we were done talking she said "You've got a great pair of ears. It just feels so good to finally let it all out."
I don't remember the last time I had that kind of human interaction. I don't understand why people don't care for other people. I don't get how one group of people can think it's ok to harm, use, oppress, or bomb another group of people. We're all humans. We all have emotions, we all have souls and hearts, and we all have minds.
There's so much pain in this world. I think there would be a lot less if people would open up their eyes and ears. There's so much ignorance in this world.
I just recently started my own business and it has a lot to do with women. I want to spend my life empowering women, helping them take charge of their lives, and of their bodies. I want to spend my life listening to as many people as I can.
Today wasn't good. I was in a terrible mood. I injured my back two weeks ago and thought I was over it, but I'm not. I'm really hurt and I did it in a really stupid way, I admit. But I've still been going where I need to be, doing what I need to do. Last night I was in excruciating pain but because of a job the other person that's running sound for Angel Street couldn't work it for me. Also, we open Angel Street in 2 days! As most of you know, I work on building the sets and the last couple days before a show are imperative. Now, I'm completely useless.. I can't bend, or move much at all. I couldn't do any hard work.. And tonight Robin made fun of me for hurting my back while bowling. I just got this overwhelming feeling of being worthless. And I broke down right there. I don't think she noticed, maybe she did, but I was in the catwalks and she was in the house. I really want to go in to the shop and work. I think about it constantly and it makes me really frustrated that I can't. I don't think Robin meant to make me feel bad. It just really hurt my feelings..
I tried to find somewhere to go that I could be alone and just let it out. I ended up going outside and sitting at a picnic table. After about 5 minutes this random lady asks me about the smoking policy on campus. She eventually comes over to smoke a cigarette at the table with me, after asking me if it would bother me. I didn't mind. I just quit smoking 3 or 4 weeks ago, but I still didn't mind. This lady had to of noticed that I'd obviously been crying. She just talked to me. We were humans to each other. Two women that just weren't having a good day. We connected. This lady had to be about my mother's age, maybe a little younger. I didn't say much, I just listened to her, the way I always listen. She was just telling me about this girl she adopted and how she was having trouble with her. When we were done talking she said "You've got a great pair of ears. It just feels so good to finally let it all out."
I don't remember the last time I had that kind of human interaction. I don't understand why people don't care for other people. I don't get how one group of people can think it's ok to harm, use, oppress, or bomb another group of people. We're all humans. We all have emotions, we all have souls and hearts, and we all have minds.
There's so much pain in this world. I think there would be a lot less if people would open up their eyes and ears. There's so much ignorance in this world.
I just recently started my own business and it has a lot to do with women. I want to spend my life empowering women, helping them take charge of their lives, and of their bodies. I want to spend my life listening to as many people as I can.