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Size 2 pants really do fit me now, but I feel like I'm a fat person trying to squish into a smaller size so I still buy 4's. I like my pants to be looser on me anyways, it makes me uncomfortable thinking that people can see my flab.
I've been having the worst breakdowns lately. Jut all of a sudden I get a whoosh of emotion and I'll start sobbing. I just feel really hopeless. My mom might not let me go to Greece because she knows that I won't eat the entire week that I'm there. Today we were in the car and she said "you're getting into your old ways. it might be in your best interest to go back into outpatient. i know that you will get all hot and bothered for me even mentioning it, but i'm going to put it out there". Exact quote from her. I just glared, what else was I supposed to do?
I can't handle this much longer :(
Should I spend $30 on hoodia right now? I have it in my shopping cart online, I want to buy it but is it dumb to buy pills when I could just stop eating alltogether and save myself money? Maybe the green tea pills are good enough--they do seem to be working at least.
I've been having the worst breakdowns lately. Jut all of a sudden I get a whoosh of emotion and I'll start sobbing. I just feel really hopeless. My mom might not let me go to Greece because she knows that I won't eat the entire week that I'm there. Today we were in the car and she said "you're getting into your old ways. it might be in your best interest to go back into outpatient. i know that you will get all hot and bothered for me even mentioning it, but i'm going to put it out there". Exact quote from her. I just glared, what else was I supposed to do?
I can't handle this much longer :(
Should I spend $30 on hoodia right now? I have it in my shopping cart online, I want to buy it but is it dumb to buy pills when I could just stop eating alltogether and save myself money? Maybe the green tea pills are good enough--they do seem to be working at least.