stop!
i have so much to hide about school and how i'm flunking out horribly and i'm such a mess right now.... sitting in the total darkness of my room with no light accept my computer that i can't even see becuase my eyes are full of tears that haven't been here for a while...i'm fucking bawling and i havn't even cried in a long time no less bawl and outta the blue its like full on!!! WTF!?!?!?!?! maybe i took on too much or something or i have too much built up inside me again and i need it to calm down.... i hate this so much.... i can't speak right or anything i'm gagged with tears and emotion that are literally choking me! i hate this i really hate this i want to melt into a little ball and just go away.... i want it all gone i wish it were that easy but its not i wish tho.... i'm so sick of the tears and the reasons behind them.... make it stop please!!!!....i can't breath....make it stop........