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I haven't wrote my feelings down for a long while so I figured I would give it a shot. I've been having a lot of mixed "feelings" lately. Not about maybe some of the obvious things but about little things. The little things that most people might not even think about. Like shoes, what's the big deal about them? Why are they so important? why do they have to match? and I get mixed answers from myslef. I think my life has just been jumbled around a lot this year and I'm looking for stability but I see so many things that are on the brink of going crazy.
Speaking of crazy I think I might be getting there, I think my mind might be slipping and one of these days I'm going to be gone...the person that I know as me will be gone. Of course I won't know any difference but I'll be locked away in some room somewhere with nothing to do but I guess whatever crazy people do. I'm told I see life from a perspective that no one has seen before, which I wouldn't be able to understand why.... I mean everything is so plain and simple.
Life seems to be spelled out clearly, I wouldn't say black and white, I hate that phrase. There are all sorts of colors and differences in everything anyone sees. Life is full of suprises, dissapointments, jealousies, lusts, hatefulness, sorrow, and all the like. I don't understand the infatuation with one imparticular though...love. Everyone wants to fall in love, or be loved in one way or another, even those who say they don't want to be loved, they're just more afraid of it than most. It's a hard thing to figure out, I mean love doesn't seem to accomplish anything, accept for those very few that throw the curb....maybe those are the ones that found "true" love. But then again what's more true about it?
I don't know, life is full of so called un answerable questions especially when it comes to uncertainty, and I guess you can call me the fool that tries to solve the unsolvable.....
Speaking of crazy I think I might be getting there, I think my mind might be slipping and one of these days I'm going to be gone...the person that I know as me will be gone. Of course I won't know any difference but I'll be locked away in some room somewhere with nothing to do but I guess whatever crazy people do. I'm told I see life from a perspective that no one has seen before, which I wouldn't be able to understand why.... I mean everything is so plain and simple.
Life seems to be spelled out clearly, I wouldn't say black and white, I hate that phrase. There are all sorts of colors and differences in everything anyone sees. Life is full of suprises, dissapointments, jealousies, lusts, hatefulness, sorrow, and all the like. I don't understand the infatuation with one imparticular though...love. Everyone wants to fall in love, or be loved in one way or another, even those who say they don't want to be loved, they're just more afraid of it than most. It's a hard thing to figure out, I mean love doesn't seem to accomplish anything, accept for those very few that throw the curb....maybe those are the ones that found "true" love. But then again what's more true about it?
I don't know, life is full of so called un answerable questions especially when it comes to uncertainty, and I guess you can call me the fool that tries to solve the unsolvable.....