errrrrmmmm......

[peacchy]

what is this?

i have no desire to eat food.
i do not get hungry.
i eat, but i don't want to.
i feel like i'm going to barf when i do.
i can't sleep.
i fall in and out of little annoying sleep fits but never actually get the real thing.

i'm not tired.
i'm not hungry.
i'm not really much of anything.

or maybe not.
maybe the fact that for the first time in a while i feel like i don't know what i am at all will change.
maybe the fact that i seem to only be making a complete ass of myself will change.
maybe this will just be a phase.

i have something to dream about.
i have a shiny bracelet from a boy.
i have a life to look forward to.

if only i didn't feel like it was a total joke...