Tattoos of memories and dead skin on trial.....

[pea_confesses]

So yea im over it. It took me till today to realize that what I thought I was missing I haven't had in a while so it doesn't matter. I had gotten used to it, the shock just allowed me to forget that. I still have ass loads of really amazing friends. I have old friends, new friends, and friends I never should of fought with. Not to mention the fact that I have a family. I have Elisa back. That took some personal convincing but I need to have her as a friend. Because she isn't just a friend, she's a sister....and eventually one of the only real Aunts that my kids will have. I mean....Elizabeth...but yea I probably won't want my kids around her too often.
I have this amazing feeling. It's like....I have arrived. My mom says that she's proud of me almost every time that we talk. I have been so down on myself for not going to college....but I took a different road. Not a bad road....not a road based on "bad decisions" just the road that I wanted. And who would have known that I could make this whole "married wife" thing work.
Who would have guessed that after a year of marrige I would be a conservative republican. Who would have guessed that I would have really found myself? Who would have guessed that I would find my contentment with Brunswick? I guess this is growing up....or maybe what it feels like to BE a grown up.
Wow....