just amazing
This year is turning out to be the best, and its funny because I left junior year on such a shitty note. I was really down for the majority of the year. Then sometime during the summer something hit me, and i concluded that its not worth being hung up on what other people think. As weird as it may be, the way i look at it is the person im talking to is more likely more umcomfortable talking with me than I am with them. Being critical of people and being an asshole is much more work than being laid back. Mostly i think that the reason I'm in a better mood overall this year is because(everyone is gonna make fun of me for this(mostly orkin and john(assholes))) is that i seriously found someone that i care so much about, and i can tell her absolutely anything, even stuff i dont tell anyone else. Its great to have a girl be on the same page as you. I have so much in common with her, and when I see her everything is better. I dont worry about school or college or other stuff when im hanging out with her. Im such a cheesy bastard, but im a better person i think because of her. Thats not to say that im not an asshole, because i still have got things i got to work on but that doesnt mean i havent made progress. At this point i dont care about the logic behind this relationship, and anyone that isnt happy for me can go to hell...I'll still think your cool. This entry will probably make me hate myself later, but right now its making me feel pretty happy.