what does the future hold?
i got back from camp today and realized how much i am going to miss all my friends from cmu...we are a great group but now i am the guy that visits from time to time...i kinda feel i'm no longer in the group but i know i am, my role has just been changed a bit.
i am also wanting to do something that i graduated for, i think about it everyday. everything i do reminds that i'm not doing any broadcasting things. i needa win the lottery then i can just start up my own production company and just shoot and edit whatever i want.
i am now worried about it. 3 years ago i met some guy living in colorado who graduated from central in BCA. now doing nuthing that has to do with it. he said good luck, he couldnt find a job and didnt wanna move away like everyone has to do when they graduate. i told myself that wont happen to me. i'll be good enough to start where i want to start. and now that i'm graduated i havent even been able to see if im good enough to start where i want to. i cant find any jobs around here. i guess i dont know where to look. but every job i find is far away. and i wanna stay here. i really like it here...a lot. everything i need right now is here except for a job...but i dunno whats more important to me now. should i find that job and then start finding other pieces of my life that i need or should i wait for the job that i can find around here.
i read a friends journal (by the way happy belated bday didnt know it was yours until i read it) and she has a huge plane of what she wants to do all the way up to being 32 and thats awesome and i really hope she gets everything she wants...but i dont have that plan i dunno if i need that, if i should have it. what i want doesnt seem as easy to lay out. but i gotta just keep working on it and i will. ok, its time to sleep. night all.
i am also wanting to do something that i graduated for, i think about it everyday. everything i do reminds that i'm not doing any broadcasting things. i needa win the lottery then i can just start up my own production company and just shoot and edit whatever i want.
i am now worried about it. 3 years ago i met some guy living in colorado who graduated from central in BCA. now doing nuthing that has to do with it. he said good luck, he couldnt find a job and didnt wanna move away like everyone has to do when they graduate. i told myself that wont happen to me. i'll be good enough to start where i want to start. and now that i'm graduated i havent even been able to see if im good enough to start where i want to. i cant find any jobs around here. i guess i dont know where to look. but every job i find is far away. and i wanna stay here. i really like it here...a lot. everything i need right now is here except for a job...but i dunno whats more important to me now. should i find that job and then start finding other pieces of my life that i need or should i wait for the job that i can find around here.
i read a friends journal (by the way happy belated bday didnt know it was yours until i read it) and she has a huge plane of what she wants to do all the way up to being 32 and thats awesome and i really hope she gets everything she wants...but i dont have that plan i dunno if i need that, if i should have it. what i want doesnt seem as easy to lay out. but i gotta just keep working on it and i will. ok, its time to sleep. night all.