I need help...and tons of it!
theres so much i have to still write about but first things first:
#1-the pope's not doin so hot n he's in the hospital! i mean what a guy right?! like we all thought MJ was sweet during his thriller days...but that faded....but the pope-the pope's fame never faded! from day one till especially now he's got hundreds of thousands of peeps crowding the streets under his hospital room's window ledge (reminds me of the movie Evita!) but fer real the pope is so old n so important to so many people, what a great man! so basicly what im getting at is "I SWEAT THE POPE" (refrence: first journal entry)n i hope that no matter ur religion u have a little compassion in ur heart to prey for him or at least know whats up n think hey man hope u feel better soon!!! so prey for the pope people-he rocks!!!!!
#2-I'm Insecure. well at least thats what i hear and apart of me believes it! like the other night i call up lil ol' nick mahoney (great kid great kid) to "check up on the friendship". Who does that u're thinking......and its me...i do that! im a class A1 citizen of ASSHOLEVILLE!!! i am an idiot! well anyways im talkin to the boy on the phone askin " hey i just wanted to make sure u didn't hate me...blahblahblah" he's like wow ur nutz y would i hate u? r u ok? whats ur deal?" n i keep askin' like makin sure the awnser doens't change...n then when i give a half ass "ok" (like 'i KINDA believe u' or 'nice job TRYING to convince me') ...he adds: "r u insecure?" n naturally i think no! n think: insecure people r weird, they're never settled, they continuously check up on things, n ask the same question. they wonder what people think about them or life -even when they constantly tell other people not to. n BAM in that split second i realize IM INSECURE!!!! n sheepishly i'd had to confess to nick...well more so to myself...that "I, Sophia Namulala, am Insecure." g-d damn! what the hell...y? whats wrong with me?-y do i do things like that!? i mean who "checks up on friendships" ? n not even with people like him even my closest friends!!! im messed up-im insecure n i was in denighal (i dont know how to spell-i'll confess that) but honestly now i need a life n prolly a new friend cuz after that nick prolly hts me!!! (aw shit there's thet insecurity thing!)
#3-there's really no #3 i had to write about but the fact that im fairly OCD forces me to continue on with the number counting. Everything needs to be just right n in perfect order. G-d damn me!!! whats my f-ing probablem???...anyone know a good shrink...im f-ing messed up as hell!!!
for the sake of everyone reading this: im out, peace diddy pretty
sophums
ps-seriously people i need comments on this one!!! this problem wont solve itself!!!
#1-the pope's not doin so hot n he's in the hospital! i mean what a guy right?! like we all thought MJ was sweet during his thriller days...but that faded....but the pope-the pope's fame never faded! from day one till especially now he's got hundreds of thousands of peeps crowding the streets under his hospital room's window ledge (reminds me of the movie Evita!) but fer real the pope is so old n so important to so many people, what a great man! so basicly what im getting at is "I SWEAT THE POPE" (refrence: first journal entry)n i hope that no matter ur religion u have a little compassion in ur heart to prey for him or at least know whats up n think hey man hope u feel better soon!!! so prey for the pope people-he rocks!!!!!
#2-I'm Insecure. well at least thats what i hear and apart of me believes it! like the other night i call up lil ol' nick mahoney (great kid great kid) to "check up on the friendship". Who does that u're thinking......and its me...i do that! im a class A1 citizen of ASSHOLEVILLE!!! i am an idiot! well anyways im talkin to the boy on the phone askin " hey i just wanted to make sure u didn't hate me...blahblahblah" he's like wow ur nutz y would i hate u? r u ok? whats ur deal?" n i keep askin' like makin sure the awnser doens't change...n then when i give a half ass "ok" (like 'i KINDA believe u' or 'nice job TRYING to convince me') ...he adds: "r u insecure?" n naturally i think no! n think: insecure people r weird, they're never settled, they continuously check up on things, n ask the same question. they wonder what people think about them or life -even when they constantly tell other people not to. n BAM in that split second i realize IM INSECURE!!!! n sheepishly i'd had to confess to nick...well more so to myself...that "I, Sophia Namulala, am Insecure." g-d damn! what the hell...y? whats wrong with me?-y do i do things like that!? i mean who "checks up on friendships" ? n not even with people like him even my closest friends!!! im messed up-im insecure n i was in denighal (i dont know how to spell-i'll confess that) but honestly now i need a life n prolly a new friend cuz after that nick prolly hts me!!! (aw shit there's thet insecurity thing!)
#3-there's really no #3 i had to write about but the fact that im fairly OCD forces me to continue on with the number counting. Everything needs to be just right n in perfect order. G-d damn me!!! whats my f-ing probablem???...anyone know a good shrink...im f-ing messed up as hell!!!
for the sake of everyone reading this: im out, peace diddy pretty
sophums
ps-seriously people i need comments on this one!!! this problem wont solve itself!!!