Practice Makes Perfect (OOC)
So, November was kind of a rough month in-character for Petra, and there's been a lot of things I've had to deal with out-of-character about learning how to play gracefully when the in-character deck gets stacked against you.
Petra is the first PC I've ever played who wasn't, in some form or fashion, "the little guy." I created Petra knowing that it would be a stretch of my rolplaying abilities, and not entirely convinced that I'd be successful at it. And I'll admit, and I've done a lot of second guessing recently. I'm thankful to those who've put up me and my second-guessing and who have either been gently encouraging, or flat out called me on my BS with some tough love. I'm happy that I've continued to just keep pushing through the RP even when my character is failing and making mistakes, because that's the game I signed on to play, and if I can't stand the heat I need to get out of the kitchen. Admittedly, it's not always as fun as I'd like it to be, but the RP is engaging and it does deepen and enrich the story, which is the ultimate point of playing.
I think I've got a long way to go before I've developed all the out-of-character skills needed to play the game at the level I'd LIKE to be playing. But I'm also happy to have gotten some unintended proof that I HAVE stepped up a level above where I was before.
My character might still be, in some ways, the little guy, but as a player I'm definitely in a bigger sandbox. I can see that I'm growing as a roleplayer, and my story is growing too, in quality and quantity (of people to RP with) and those are both fun and good things.
I've got great story now, and I hope that I'm helping other people have good story too.
Petra is the first PC I've ever played who wasn't, in some form or fashion, "the little guy." I created Petra knowing that it would be a stretch of my rolplaying abilities, and not entirely convinced that I'd be successful at it. And I'll admit, and I've done a lot of second guessing recently. I'm thankful to those who've put up me and my second-guessing and who have either been gently encouraging, or flat out called me on my BS with some tough love. I'm happy that I've continued to just keep pushing through the RP even when my character is failing and making mistakes, because that's the game I signed on to play, and if I can't stand the heat I need to get out of the kitchen. Admittedly, it's not always as fun as I'd like it to be, but the RP is engaging and it does deepen and enrich the story, which is the ultimate point of playing.
I think I've got a long way to go before I've developed all the out-of-character skills needed to play the game at the level I'd LIKE to be playing. But I'm also happy to have gotten some unintended proof that I HAVE stepped up a level above where I was before.
My character might still be, in some ways, the little guy, but as a player I'm definitely in a bigger sandbox. I can see that I'm growing as a roleplayer, and my story is growing too, in quality and quantity (of people to RP with) and those are both fun and good things.
I've got great story now, and I hope that I'm helping other people have good story too.