ugh....

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I know you most likely don't want to hear me ramble on but I need to rant.....

so i met this boy named brian
i was confused at first
then felt like a jerk
then became uninterested
then reinterested
well he invited me to go out tonight and i was very unsure if i wanted to go....but i did

it was fun
he bought me a couple drinks, we danced, talked, kissed
he wasn't awkward...it as fun

then afterwards we had a good talk: i told him i liked him, he told me he liked me

we agreed to take it slow for my sake, since i have been hurt a lot
and set up to hang out again this weekend

then as our talking continued he mentioned that the last time we hung out with my friends he felt wierd (which is ok) but then he said he didn't think he needed to get to know them and that he didn't really want to get to know them

this hurts me a lot

my friends are my fucking life
you can't choose me and not them....they are like that little blob of coleslaw that comes with your meal (you may not order it....but PLOP.....there it is)

so now i am just upset...i was really excited, i thought maybe i actually found a guy....

but it just won't work....not with that comment