saturday is my last go...
so yesterday i booked my flight home. i will be coming home on the 18th, mitch is picking me up in chicago yay! can anyone say i get the classic, just off the plane, (ok, technically not the gate...more like outside the security checkpoint) extremely passionate, movie-esque kiss?! ik you're jealous...
so yup im auditioning on sat. for hbII for the 3rd time and uk what im not nervous. this is last shot but im ok with it. i mean ik im not what the company is looking for so if i dont get accepted into hbII then i guess i understand. and i dont have any regrets i came here so young and am doing something most dancers my age wouldnt be. im only 18 just out of hs and im going to be in a company...well studio company but basically its an better improved by like ten times hbII. i mean i get to perform with the company, take company class 3 times a wk., get paid, have an actual title...man way more benefits than hbII.
dont get me wrong not saying that hbII isnt a great opportunity, a tiny part of me...ok like half of me wants to stay in texas. its home now kinda...i spent the last two yrs. of my young adult life here. this place has taught me so much and made me mature so fast. ive learned a lot of lessons here. its understandable to be a bit emotional when i think about leaving the 8 block radius that has been my world for 2 yrs. its sad but i keep thinking of the great opportunities that most likely lie ahead.
im almost 75% sure that i will be signing that contract for colorado ballet on monday. i think its time to give up the idea of hbII...so im letting go.
benefits of colorado ballet btw...im home for 2 months this summer!! ya ik you guys will get sick of me haha oh and for you mcdonalds workers im apparently most likely getting my job back...ik im so cool.
ok that was a lot. sorry for the ramble; just had to put this swarm of feelings in my head on paper.
much love, kristin
so yup im auditioning on sat. for hbII for the 3rd time and uk what im not nervous. this is last shot but im ok with it. i mean ik im not what the company is looking for so if i dont get accepted into hbII then i guess i understand. and i dont have any regrets i came here so young and am doing something most dancers my age wouldnt be. im only 18 just out of hs and im going to be in a company...well studio company but basically its an better improved by like ten times hbII. i mean i get to perform with the company, take company class 3 times a wk., get paid, have an actual title...man way more benefits than hbII.
dont get me wrong not saying that hbII isnt a great opportunity, a tiny part of me...ok like half of me wants to stay in texas. its home now kinda...i spent the last two yrs. of my young adult life here. this place has taught me so much and made me mature so fast. ive learned a lot of lessons here. its understandable to be a bit emotional when i think about leaving the 8 block radius that has been my world for 2 yrs. its sad but i keep thinking of the great opportunities that most likely lie ahead.
im almost 75% sure that i will be signing that contract for colorado ballet on monday. i think its time to give up the idea of hbII...so im letting go.
benefits of colorado ballet btw...im home for 2 months this summer!! ya ik you guys will get sick of me haha oh and for you mcdonalds workers im apparently most likely getting my job back...ik im so cool.
ok that was a lot. sorry for the ramble; just had to put this swarm of feelings in my head on paper.
much love, kristin