Dinner With a Friend
Well we finally spent more than an hour together at one time. It was wonderful to have a civilized conversation with someone that is very interesting. And the best part was that he was interested in what I had to say. So many times in my life I let people talk over me, and here is a guy asking me questions and letting me be myself.
We also talked about what we wanted out of this relationship. I don't think both of us know yet honestly. I would love to keep this up and see where it goes. But I also see pain in his eyes and he explained how hard this would be for him to keep doing unless he made certain choices. Perhaps this will help him make a decision if I show that I can support him through this, emotionally at least. But that may be the hardest thing I've ever done and I'm just not sure yet. But if I continue to wait and continue what we are doing, I might get too attached. He has many more issues than me and I've seen other people go through this as well. But the good thing is he isn't blindly going into this, he knows what is at stake. For now we will continue this friendship because it just feels good and is comfortable.
Our next step is to continue to meet. He will be coming over to my place and will meet my roommates who quite understandably are concerned. I think I will get good advice from them.
Lastly, we have touched. Such a simple thing it is. We just held hands at dinner and in the car as he drove me home. Our quick kiss goodbye left the doors open to something that could be wonderful and full of potential.
We also talked about what we wanted out of this relationship. I don't think both of us know yet honestly. I would love to keep this up and see where it goes. But I also see pain in his eyes and he explained how hard this would be for him to keep doing unless he made certain choices. Perhaps this will help him make a decision if I show that I can support him through this, emotionally at least. But that may be the hardest thing I've ever done and I'm just not sure yet. But if I continue to wait and continue what we are doing, I might get too attached. He has many more issues than me and I've seen other people go through this as well. But the good thing is he isn't blindly going into this, he knows what is at stake. For now we will continue this friendship because it just feels good and is comfortable.
Our next step is to continue to meet. He will be coming over to my place and will meet my roommates who quite understandably are concerned. I think I will get good advice from them.
Lastly, we have touched. Such a simple thing it is. We just held hands at dinner and in the car as he drove me home. Our quick kiss goodbye left the doors open to something that could be wonderful and full of potential.