Random Thoughts for Valentines Day 2007.
I hate the fact that there are hearts all over livejournal. I want to boycott it today if for no other reason than I fucking hate all the pink and red everywhere. This makes me think of that line from Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind...
Random thoughts for Valentine's day, 2004. Today is a holiday invented by greeting card companies to make people feel like crap.
Anyway, this holiday makes me feel more and more alone every year. On every holiday, I think about the last few years of that holiday and how things have changed in my life.
2/14/2007- I'm alone. I want someone in my life. I want to feel loved. I'm not "dating" anyone per se, however I have gone out a couple times with a couple different guys and one in particular I could see myself dating, however he is going through a really rough situation in his life right now, and I don't know whether to back off and give him space to deal with it or try to bond with him and help him get through it. The loss of a parent is one of the hardest things anyone could possibly be forced to deal with.
2/14/2006- I was single and miserable, even 4 months after my breakup with Rob. Valentines Day just made me realize how much I hated him and all the hard feelings I had (still have) for him to this day for hurting me as much as he did. I felt/ still feel as though I will never love again.
2/14/2005- I sort of expected some sort of fairytale with Rob. I'd been with him for 5 months at this point. The fucked up modern fairytale ended up being that Rob made NO plans for us and we ended up eating hamburgers from Carl's JR and then I ended up in the hospital later that night. I didn't end up talking to my boyfriend for over a week. I think most of you know the story.
2/14/2004- I had just moved to Santa Barbara with Greg within the last couple of months. I can't honestly remember if we did anything or not.
2/14/2003- Greg came up from Houston to see me while I was living in Austin. He brought me a rose in a tequila bottle... the only time a guy has ever given me a rose and the first Valentine's Day actually having a Valentine.
Random thoughts for Valentine's day, 2004. Today is a holiday invented by greeting card companies to make people feel like crap.
Anyway, this holiday makes me feel more and more alone every year. On every holiday, I think about the last few years of that holiday and how things have changed in my life.
2/14/2007- I'm alone. I want someone in my life. I want to feel loved. I'm not "dating" anyone per se, however I have gone out a couple times with a couple different guys and one in particular I could see myself dating, however he is going through a really rough situation in his life right now, and I don't know whether to back off and give him space to deal with it or try to bond with him and help him get through it. The loss of a parent is one of the hardest things anyone could possibly be forced to deal with.
2/14/2006- I was single and miserable, even 4 months after my breakup with Rob. Valentines Day just made me realize how much I hated him and all the hard feelings I had (still have) for him to this day for hurting me as much as he did. I felt/ still feel as though I will never love again.
2/14/2005- I sort of expected some sort of fairytale with Rob. I'd been with him for 5 months at this point. The fucked up modern fairytale ended up being that Rob made NO plans for us and we ended up eating hamburgers from Carl's JR and then I ended up in the hospital later that night. I didn't end up talking to my boyfriend for over a week. I think most of you know the story.
2/14/2004- I had just moved to Santa Barbara with Greg within the last couple of months. I can't honestly remember if we did anything or not.
2/14/2003- Greg came up from Houston to see me while I was living in Austin. He brought me a rose in a tequila bottle... the only time a guy has ever given me a rose and the first Valentine's Day actually having a Valentine.