LOST!
Not the drama series on TV but the roller coaster in my life now.
angry and disappointed with him and also at myself.... after so long feeling jaded with myself and now this episode with him. think i'm getting old yet angry with myself for being so stubborn at times. now pondering on whether to give this relationship another chance.
there is this very strong feeling that should i give this up i'll being giving up on my future not only with him but with everyone else. but if i dun give it up there will be a stronger sense of heart break and feeling of lost.
contradiction with no expectation....
angry and disappointed with him and also at myself.... after so long feeling jaded with myself and now this episode with him. think i'm getting old yet angry with myself for being so stubborn at times. now pondering on whether to give this relationship another chance.
there is this very strong feeling that should i give this up i'll being giving up on my future not only with him but with everyone else. but if i dun give it up there will be a stronger sense of heart break and feeling of lost.
contradiction with no expectation....