dreading the day to come

Oct 06, 2005 14:14

Sorry folks cannot help this feeling but had to pen it down ( Read more... )

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xamee October 8 2005, 04:03:55 UTC
Emmm... I'm not very sure of it. Sadly, I don't have the passion to think about it. To accept the truth that the sun rises from the east is not hard. But i'm not sure other truths about life, love or the world will be so easy to face.

Let's say if someone is recovering from a hurt, he will instinctively avoid the deep thought of the truth behind. In this case, I'd rather weave a hope for myself to get the strength to make it through. Sometimes I know the hope is in vain, but I so need this fabricated light to carry on that I don't want to face the truth.

There are thousands of ways to live one's life. One of the best is remaining peace and harmony while having insight of the world and the truth. But I think most of us can't reach that extent, at least I can't. I don't have the courage to face what lies behind this world and this life, so i fix it with my own imagination and stand it when any of the imagination not working.

Being deep in thought makes me wanna take a suicide, 'cause my pessimistic tiny brain cannot take it any further than what's in my illusion. I used to like to meditate a few years ago, but it disordered my brain, and that's why i took the name brian.

I cannot narrate something impartially and indifferently especially something about life and the world.

P.S. This is really fun to discuss something here. I learnt a lot new words in your thoughts (entries and comments). But think i should not reply any more 'cause i found my english really not enough to allow me to any further.

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