Unbalance
Been feeling kinda emotionally unbalance recently.
Yesterday had a sudden flare of anger and stupidity. Sent Jaer off to UK yesterday and was leaving the airport when i just when bonkers and flare up.
Basically wat happened was Oliver wanted to drive the 5 of us (cp, me, dot, patrick and pat's frd) home after jaer flew off. I knew that Cp wanted to sit in the front passenger seat as he always say the fat one sit in front. but i felt that as i was the last to get off so i wanna sit in front. watmore i have some stuff in the front seat already since i came with oliver to the airport.
My prediction came true and CP went straight to the front seat even after i made known my intention and ignored wat i said. So my attitude came up and i just left to take the MRT instead. Maybe my anger is childish but i felt that i have given in to CP all the while and was not appreciated and now we have ended the relationship i'll do wat i want and not want to feel that i am giving in to him anymore. To accept and still sit in that car will make me feel still trapped and miserable and i rather just be a bitch and walk off.
Anyway so sorry guys that you are trapped in my little outburst. it is not directed at anyone but maybe just for me to regain that little dignity that i have lost. maybe no one will understand wat i did but its okie.
Yesterday had a sudden flare of anger and stupidity. Sent Jaer off to UK yesterday and was leaving the airport when i just when bonkers and flare up.
Basically wat happened was Oliver wanted to drive the 5 of us (cp, me, dot, patrick and pat's frd) home after jaer flew off. I knew that Cp wanted to sit in the front passenger seat as he always say the fat one sit in front. but i felt that as i was the last to get off so i wanna sit in front. watmore i have some stuff in the front seat already since i came with oliver to the airport.
My prediction came true and CP went straight to the front seat even after i made known my intention and ignored wat i said. So my attitude came up and i just left to take the MRT instead. Maybe my anger is childish but i felt that i have given in to CP all the while and was not appreciated and now we have ended the relationship i'll do wat i want and not want to feel that i am giving in to him anymore. To accept and still sit in that car will make me feel still trapped and miserable and i rather just be a bitch and walk off.
Anyway so sorry guys that you are trapped in my little outburst. it is not directed at anyone but maybe just for me to regain that little dignity that i have lost. maybe no one will understand wat i did but its okie.