Mixed Feelings
feeling really down, lost and dejected.
met up with Taiwan on last saturday. seeing him in the army now in his number 4, so dark skinny tired and sick. something in me just cracked. sadness overcome my strong front. tears wanting to creep out from my eyes. but still i put on a smile and ask him how he has been, passed him his stuff and chatted for a while.
as he turn his head away and left, the emptiness felt deeper darker and lonely. as i was still feeling sorry for my sad soul and damned self, i got a msg that says i still miss you.
facing my friend trying to act as per norm yet tears just well up at the corners of my eyes. apologise that the chilli stung my eyes and brushing the topic a side. i was sad really sad. sad to know that it is still not the time to be together. i hate myself.
met up with Taiwan on last saturday. seeing him in the army now in his number 4, so dark skinny tired and sick. something in me just cracked. sadness overcome my strong front. tears wanting to creep out from my eyes. but still i put on a smile and ask him how he has been, passed him his stuff and chatted for a while.
as he turn his head away and left, the emptiness felt deeper darker and lonely. as i was still feeling sorry for my sad soul and damned self, i got a msg that says i still miss you.
facing my friend trying to act as per norm yet tears just well up at the corners of my eyes. apologise that the chilli stung my eyes and brushing the topic a side. i was sad really sad. sad to know that it is still not the time to be together. i hate myself.